Re: I'm Different - But I'm Ok

[Guest guest]

Wow, this is beautiful and perfect. Thanks for sharing this wonderful poem.

Ide

From: Norma Filbrun <n.filbrun1@...> Sent: Sunday, April 26, 2009 6:19:09 PMSubject: ( ) "I'm Different - But I'm Ok"

I wrote this afternoon thinking about some of the aspects of Aspergers and how it must feel from their perceptive.

"I'm Different - But I'm Ok"

I'm often the last to be chosen,

I don't measure up for the game.

The cliques and the social circles,

Don't seem to know my name.

I'm not real coordinated.

I run with a lopsided gait.

It's often hard to catch the ball.

But it seems to be my fate.

The bullies have my number.

They pick me out of the crowd,

Taunting, teasing and laughing.

I cringe when their voices get loud

Sometimes your jokes fly past me.

I don't always laugh with the rest.

I don't always have an answer

When given the social test.

They say I look perfectly normal.

My IQs on the upper scale.

But often I'm not connected,

In a group, I don't fit in well.

I don't want to be so "different"

I don't want to struggle in school,

My teachers think I'm just lazy,

And don't want to follow the rules.

Sometimes I fidget and jitter,

And often I just can't sit still.

I really don't want to be like this,

It's worse than being ill.

When I get backed in a corner,

I'm afraid and I panic inside.

My meltdowns become quite scary

I react out of fear I can't hide.

Fashion and style's don't matter.

And hygiene's not important to me

It's ok if my colors don't match.

I can't be what you want me to be.

I have feelings like everyone else.

It hurts to be misunderstood

I want to be loved and accepted

And I really want to be good.

"Aspergers" is my label

I'm "high functioning" they say,

But life can be a challenge.

I don't want to be this way.

They call it a wiring problem.

Brain signals don't always get through.

The message that comes across to me;

May be different than what comes to you.

Dear God up in heaven,

You've known me from the start.

You made me in Your image,

And gave me a loving heart!

I know Your plan is perfect.

Your way is good and true.

I am not just a mistake,

Cause I was made by You!

"So God created man/woman in his own image,"

Genesis 1:27

~norma 4/26/09

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[Guest guest]

Thanks Ide, I've been reading all the support group posts that come through and feeling not so alone. My first adopted son is now 40 and Asperger. I've raising his three daughters since they were babies, two of which have the Asperger diagnosis. (ages 15,16, & 21) I have some very frustrating days. My 16 yr old is my biggest challenge. There are many days when I think I'm just too old for this. Having 40 years of Asperger experience, I don't have a lot of answers but I sure can understand the frustrations of raising these special children. Most of what's written here I can relate to. And if I wasn't so often dealing with a new Aspie crisis I'd love to take the time to respond to all of them. This support group is a balm for my many frustrations. Today I had a little time so I poured my heart and experience into this poem. BTW I write almost every day in an Asperger blog on xanga called Autisable. One of my posts is found at http://autisable.xanga.com/699542591/how-to-survive-autism/ (I am "mom1945") Thanks everyone for pouring your hearts into this support group! God bless!

Wow, this is beautiful and perfect. Thanks for sharing this wonderful poem.

Ide

I wrote this afternoon thinking about some of the aspects of Aspergers and how it must feel from their perceptive.

"I'm Different - But I'm Ok"

I'm often the last to be chosen,

I don't measure up for the game.

The cliques and the social circles,

Don't seem to know my name.

I'm not real coordinated.

I run with a lopsided gait.

It's often hard to catch the ball.

But it seems to be my fate.

The bullies have my number.

They pick me out of the crowd,

Taunting, teasing and laughing.

I cringe when their voices get loud

Sometimes your jokes fly past me.

I don't always laugh with the rest.

I don't always have an answer

When given the social test.

They say I look perfectly normal.

My IQs on the upper scale.

But often I'm not connected,

In a group, I don't fit in well.

I don't want to be so "different"

I don't want to struggle in school,

My teachers think I'm just lazy,

And don't want to follow the rules.

Sometimes I fidget and jitter,

And often I just can't sit still.

I really don't want to be like this,

It's worse than being ill.

When I get backed in a corner,

I'm afraid and I panic inside.

My meltdowns become quite scary

I react out of fear I can't hide.

Fashion and style's don't matter.

And hygiene's not important to me

It's ok if my colors don't match.

I can't be what you want me to be.

I have feelings like everyone else.

It hurts to be misunderstood

I want to be loved and accepted

And I really want to be good.

"Aspergers" is my label

I'm "high functioning" they say,

But life can be a challenge.

I don't want to be this way.

They call it a wiring problem.

Brain signals don't always get through.

The message that comes across to me;

May be different than what comes to you.

Dear God up in heaven,

You've known me from the start.

You made me in Your image,

And gave me a loving heart!

I know Your plan is perfect.

Your way is good and true.

I am not just a mistake,

Cause I was made by You!

"So God created man/woman in his own image,"

Genesis 1:27

~norma 4/26/09

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[Guest guest]

Thank you so much for putting this into words.

I love it.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Suzanne

suzmarkwood@...

From: Norma Filbrun <n.filbrun1@...>Subject: ( ) "I'm Different - But I'm Ok" Date: Sunday, April 26, 2009, 4:19 PM

I wrote this afternoon thinking about some of the aspects of Aspergers and how it must feel from their perceptive.

"I'm Different - But I'm Ok"

I'm often the last to be chosen,

I don't measure up for the game.

The cliques and the social circles,

Don't seem to know my name.

I'm not real coordinated.

I run with a lopsided gait.

It's often hard to catch the ball.

But it seems to be my fate.

The bullies have my number.

They pick me out of the crowd,

Taunting, teasing and laughing.

I cringe when their voices get loud

Sometimes your jokes fly past me.

I don't always laugh with the rest.

I don't always have an answer

When given the social test.

They say I look perfectly normal.

My IQs on the upper scale.

But often I'm not connected,

In a group, I don't fit in well.

I don't want to be so "different"

I don't want to struggle in school,

My teachers think I'm just lazy,

And don't want to follow the rules.

Sometimes I fidget and jitter,

And often I just can't sit still.

I really don't want to be like this,

It's worse than being ill.

When I get backed in a corner,

I'm afraid and I panic inside.

My meltdowns become quite scary

I react out of fear I can't hide.

Fashion and style's don't matter.

And hygiene's not important to me

It's ok if my colors don't match.

I can't be what you want me to be.

I have feelings like everyone else.

It hurts to be misunderstood

I want to be loved and accepted

And I really want to be good.

"Aspergers" is my label

I'm "high functioning" they say,

But life can be a challenge.

I don't want to be this way.

They call it a wiring problem.

Brain signals don't always get through.

The message that comes across to me;

May be different than what comes to you.

Dear God up in heaven,

You've known me from the start.

You made me in Your image,

And gave me a loving heart!

I know Your plan is perfect.

Your way is good and true.

I am not just a mistake,

Cause I was made by You!

"So God created man/woman in his own image,"

Genesis 1:27

~norma 4/26/09

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[Guest guest]

Thank you so much for putting this into words.

I love it.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Suzanne

suzmarkwood

From: Norma Filbrun <n.filbrun1juno>Subject: ( ) "I'm Different - But I'm Ok" Date: Sunday, April 26, 2009, 4:19 PM

I wrote this afternoon thinking about some of the aspects of Aspergers and how it must feel from their perceptive.

"I'm Different - But I'm Ok"

I'm often the last to be chosen,

I don't measure up for the game.

The cliques and the social circles,

Don't seem to know my name.

I'm not real coordinated.

I run with a lopsided gait.

It's often hard to catch the ball.

But it seems to be my fate.

The bullies have my number.

They pick me out of the crowd,

Taunting, teasing and laughing.

I cringe when their voices get loud

Sometimes your jokes fly past me.

I don't always laugh with the rest.

I don't always have an answer

When given the social test.

They say I look perfectly normal.

My IQs on the upper scale.

But often I'm not connected,

In a group, I don't fit in well.

I don't want to be so "different"

I don't want to struggle in school,

My teachers think I'm just lazy,

And don't want to follow the rules.

Sometimes I fidget and jitter,

And often I just can't sit still.

I really don't want to be like this,

It's worse than being ill.

When I get backed in a corner,

I'm afraid and I panic inside.

My meltdowns become quite scary

I react out of fear I can't hide.

Fashion and style's don't matter.

And hygiene's not important to me

It's ok if my colors don't match.

I can't be what you want me to be.

I have feelings like everyone else.

It hurts to be misunderstood

I want to be loved and accepted

And I really want to be good.

"Aspergers" is my label

I'm "high functioning" they say,

But life can be a challenge.

I don't want to be this way.

They call it a wiring problem.

Brain signals don't always get through.

The message that comes across to me;

May be different than what comes to you.

Dear God up in heaven,

You've known me from the start.

You made me in Your image,

And gave me a loving heart!

I know Your plan is perfect.

Your way is good and true.

I am not just a mistake,

Cause I was made by You!

"So God created man/woman in his own image,"

Genesis 1:27

~norma 4/26/09

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tears are rolling down my face and i say you spoke for all our kids if we could only make others see what we see know what we know feel what we feel or even simply to try and understand.sherryFrom: Norma Filbrun <n.filbrun1@...> Sent: Monday, April 27, 2009 10:09:53 AMSubject: Re: ( ) "I'm Different - But I'm Ok"

Thank you so much for putting this into words.

I love it.

~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~ ~

Suzanne

suzmarkwood

From: Norma Filbrun <n.filbrun1juno (DOT) com>Subject: ( ) "I'm Different - But I'm Ok" Date: Sunday, April 26, 2009, 4:19 PM

I wrote this afternoon thinking about some of the aspects of Aspergers and how it must feel from their perceptive.

"I'm Different - But I'm Ok"

I'm often the last to be chosen,

I don't measure up for the game.

The cliques and the social circles,

Don't seem to know my name.

I'm not real coordinated.

I run with a lopsided gait.

It's often hard to catch the ball.

But it seems to be my fate.

The bullies have my number.

They pick me out of the crowd,

Taunting, teasing and laughing.

I cringe when their voices get loud

Sometimes your jokes fly past me.

I don't always laugh with the rest.

I don't always have an answer

When given the social test.

They say I look perfectly normal.

My IQs on the upper scale.

But often I'm not connected,

In a group, I don't fit in well.

I don't want to be so "different"

I don't want to struggle in school,

My teachers think I'm just lazy,

And don't want to follow the rules.

Sometimes I fidget and jitter,

And often I just can't sit still.

I really don't want to be like this,

It's worse than being ill.

When I get backed in a corner,

I'm afraid and I panic inside.

My meltdowns become quite scary

I react out of fear I can't hide.

Fashion and style's don't matter.

And hygiene's not important to me

It's ok if my colors don't match.

I can't be what you want me to be.

I have feelings like everyone else.

It hurts to be misunderstood

I want to be loved and accepted

And I really want to be good.

"Aspergers" is my label

I'm "high functioning" they say,

But life can be a challenge.

I don't want to be this way.

They call it a wiring problem.

Brain signals don't always get through.

The message that comes across to me;

May be different than what comes to you.

Dear God up in heaven,

You've known me from the start.

You made me in Your image,

And gave me a loving heart!

I know Your plan is perfect.

Your way is good and true.

I am not just a mistake,

Cause I was made by You!

"So God created man/woman in his own image,"

Genesis 1:27

~norma 4/26/09

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[Guest guest]

Norma, that was beautiful! You have a gift! (guess you know that) I'd like to

share it too, with your " Norma 4/26/09 " with it of course. Sigh, I envy you

gifted writers.

>

> Robin, you are very welcome to keep it and pass it on. There is so much

> more that could be written, about all the daily frustrations the

> caregivers deal with, the many soical issues, the isolation, impulsivity,

> stimming, repetitions etc. but these are a few of the basics that most of

> us Asperger moms are well aware of. God bless your day!

> norma

>

[Guest guest]

it made me cry also ...awesome poem! It should be published!

From: Norma Filbrun <n.filbrun1juno (DOT) com>Subject: ( ) "I'm Different - But I'm Ok" Date: Sunday, April 26, 2009, 4:19 PM

I wrote this afternoon thinking about some of the aspects of Aspergers and how it must feel from their perceptive.

"I'm Different - But I'm Ok"

I'm often the last to be chosen,

I don't measure up for the game.

The cliques and the social circles,

Don't seem to know my name.

I'm not real coordinated.

I run with a lopsided gait.

It's often hard to catch the ball.

But it seems to be my fate.

The bullies have my number.

They pick me out of the crowd,

Taunting, teasing and laughing.

I cringe when their voices get loud

Sometimes your jokes fly past me.

I don't always laugh with the rest.

I don't always have an answer

When given the social test.

They say I look perfectly normal.

My IQs on the upper scale.

But often I'm not connected,

In a group, I don't fit in well.

I don't want to be so "different"

I don't want to struggle in school,

My teachers think I'm just lazy,

And don't want to follow the rules.

Sometimes I fidget and jitter,

And often I just can't sit still.

I really don't want to be like this,

It's worse than being ill.

When I get backed in a corner,

I'm afraid and I panic inside.

My meltdowns become quite scary

I react out of fear I can't hide.

Fashion and style's don't matter.

And hygiene's not important to me

It's ok if my colors don't match.

I can't be what you want me to be.

I have feelings like everyone else.

It hurts to be misunderstood

I want to be loved and accepted

And I really want to be good.

"Aspergers" is my label

I'm "high functioning" they say,

But life can be a challenge.

I don't want to be this way.

They call it a wiring problem.

Brain signals don't always get through.

The message that comes across to me;

May be different than what comes to you.

Dear God up in heaven,

You've known me from the start.

You made me in Your image,

And gave me a loving heart!

I know Your plan is perfect.

Your way is good and true.

I am not just a mistake,

Cause I was made by You!

"So God created man/woman in his own image,"

Genesis 1:27

~norma 4/26/09

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