I'm Different - But I'm Ok

[Guest guest]

I wrote this afternoon thinking about some of the aspects of Aspergers and how it must feel from their perceptive.

"I'm Different - But I'm Ok"

I'm often the last to be chosen,

I don't measure up for the game.

The cliques and the social circles,

Don't seem to know my name.

I'm not real coordinated.

I run with a lopsided gait.

It's often hard to catch the ball.

But it seems to be my fate.

The bullies have my number.

They pick me out of the crowd,

Taunting, teasing and laughing.

I cringe when their voices get loud

Sometimes your jokes fly past me.

I don't always laugh with the rest.

I don't always have an answer

When given the social test.

They say I look perfectly normal.

My IQs on the upper scale.

But often I'm not connected,

In a group, I don't fit in well.

I don't want to be so "different"

I don't want to struggle in school,

My teachers think I'm just lazy,

And don't want to follow the rules.

Sometimes I fidget and jitter,

And often I just can't sit still.

I really don't want to be like this,

It's worse than being ill.

When I get backed in a corner,

I'm afraid and I panic inside.

My meltdowns become quite scary

I react out of fear I can't hide.

Fashion and style's don't matter.

And hygiene's not important to me

It's ok if my colors don't match.

I can't be what you want me to be.

I have feelings like everyone else.

It hurts to be misunderstood

I want to be loved and accepted

And I really want to be good.

"Aspergers" is my label

I'm "high functioning" they say,

But life can be a challenge.

I don't want to be this way.

They call it a wiring problem.

Brain signals don't always get through.

The message that comes across to me;

May be different than what comes to you.

Dear God up in heaven,

You've known me from the start.

You made me in Your image,

And gave me a loving heart!

I know Your plan is perfect.

Your way is good and true.

I am not just a mistake,

Cause I was made by You!

"So God created man/woman in his own image,"

Genesis 1:27

~norma 4/26/09

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