Neuropsych assessment -

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So we spent an entire day and a half torturing my daughter (6) with a TON of

tests until she could take no more. In case some of you didn't read my previous

post about testing.... we live in the middle of nowhere and had to drive close

to 4 hours, so the center tried to get as much testing as they could in during

this one trip. The only thing they didn't get to was the academic testing. Of

course I'm really bummed about that, but hopefully they'll get us in again real

soon for it. I don't know how long I have to wait for results. They said they

really couldn't give any preliminary findings, but the tester definitely got to

know ALL sides of liese, on AND off Adderall. I'm sure it's normal

procedure, but the testing was done one-on-one while I waited in the lobby, so I

have no idea how she performed or if she was at all cooperative. I just pray

they come up with SOMETHING.

We've had a rough couple of days since we got home. She seems to be more

stressed out and very irritable. I even got a call to pick her up from school

today because she was in the office complaining that her eyes hurt and she was

too tired to concentrate. She went to bed rather early last night and slept

well too. She's a very perceptive little girl, and I hope she doesn't have the

feeling that we think she's defective - although I suppose if someone dragged me

4 hours from home and made me sit in a closet with some person hurling questions

at me for hours on end, I may question myself too.

So I'm beat and feeling a bit worn down. I had high hopes, and figured I'd walk

away with a little something, but it's more of the waiting game. I find myself

getting more and more frustrated with my daughter to the point that I feel I'm

not enjoying her at all. In fact, most of the time, I dread the time I have to

be with her. I often feel resentful because I'm trying so hard to help her, I'm

devoting my life to it, but it just isn't doing any good. I expect results, but

she doesn't work WITH me - she doesn't see that I'm trying to make her life

(and, well, mine too) easier.

I am totally just venting right now. I think I'm more upset with myself because

I should be treasuring my daughter, but I feel like all my effort is being

wasted. It's like she doesn't WANT to learn. She wants to do what is familiar

and fights anything that may even remotely challenge her. I honestly don't know

how she's squeaking by in school.

Ugg. I'm tired (but what else is new???). Think I'll quit bitching and stop my

pity party and go to bed. I'll once again be optimistic that tomorrow will be a

better day. Thanks to you all. I'm sure my questions and rants will continue

soon!

Andie