anxiety / depression

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I went to a new psychiatrist today. I was given a prescription for

paxil and I was told to take my xanax more often. " the anxiety is

radiating off of you "

The xanax does wonders but I don't like taking it. Taking it just

proves that " i can't handle it anymore " . My former shrink had me on

prozac. It helped some, but it was a waste.

The new dr says that i need these drugs just like a diabetic needs

insulin. just like i need the plethora of other medications i also

take. i still can't but see it as a crutch. an admission that i am

weak. my ability to " deal " with the pa and my other conditions once

made me feel strong. special even.... wiser than my years.

now i feel weak.

i just want to feel better.

ari

Moderator note: Do what you need to do to feel better. If that means you need

antidepressants or whatever, then take them.

I felt similarly to you about taking my Zoloft. Because we're trying to get

pregnant, one of my docs told me to wean off the Zoloft. I did that and was Ok

for a while, and then KERPLUNK, my moods started spiraling again. After further

discussion wtih my OB/GYN, we decided I coudl continue the Zoloft during

preganancy, should I get there. I started the Zoloft again, and within ***24

hours***, I felt better.

I truly believe my brain chemicals are just " off " and it's probably hereditary,

given my family history. It's nothing that I did, could control or reflects on

my personhood, anymore than a person who gets cancer is " bad " because a few of

their cells went haywire and grew out of control. It's not a crutch. It's a

miracle that I don't have to live like my grandparents did, living with chronic

depression, year in and year out, miserable.

I'll take hte meds, and be happy.

Patty, moderator from OH.