Fw: implants and cognitive impairment

May 11, 2002

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From: " by way of ilena rose " <Dawnmeredith1024@...>

Sent: Friday, May 10, 2002 9:16 PM

Subject: implants and cognitive impairment

> I finally have an explantation date: 6/20 but am feeling a sense of grief

> and fear. (Grief in that this will be akin to a mastectomy as I was as

flat

> as a 12 year old boy prior to my first surgery at age 19). I am also

> feeling fearful-denial perhaps??- that my cognitive problems are from all

> the years I took xanax for severe insomia (which began immediately after

> the first implants). I guess my big fear is that what if I get this out

and

> still don't improve, then I will be flat again and still have memory/

> cognitive difficulties. The PS I choose does not believe this causes any

> problems, then again most of them feel this way. He does remove en bloc

and

> his prices are what I have saved 2 years for. So it is scheduled. I have

2

> weeks before I have to pay him, in other words change my mind. I am 52, I

> have had breasts now for most of my life...admittedly now that I am in a

> loving and happy marriage it is less important, and he is totally

> supportive of this decision. I have been reading other peoples' stories

> for the last 5 hours... I need as much feedback as I can get that all this

> brain fog is from silicone and that I have a shot of improving ONLY if I

> go thru with the surgery and not chicken out. I was once able to pass a

> bar exam and studied, as a hobby, complex JFK (etc.)conspiracy

> literature. Now I am lucky to read the newspaper. I could never pass any

> exam in my present state. I am able to hide this (as we all have learned

> to do) but I avoid reading anything too technical. Including a lot of

> updates on the Dow lawsuit as I find that too complex. Does anyone know

> how and why this seems to impair the brain??? Thanks, Dawn

>

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