Re: A poem I wrote before explant.....

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Dear Darlene:

That's a GREAT poem. Thank you.

-Marie

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Darlene that is a beautiful poem, and knowing where you have been as I have

also been there myself, I can relate well to it.

It will be so good for you now that the implants are gone, you will see, it

is like being reborn again as the illness loosens its grip over your body,

slowly you will see, life will never be the same again but in some ways that

can be a positive thing, we will never take our health or our bodies for

granted again, and everyday that we feel good is a gift from god.

Hugs

----- Original Message -----

From: " cdpayne64 " <cdpayne64@...>

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Sent: Thursday, June 20, 2002 6:59 PM

Subject: A poem I wrote before explant.....

I wrote this a few weeks ago, I've really been thinking about this

whole 'implant' and American Beauty thing. Not to mention it wasn't

long ago I thought I was dying or had MS. What a long two years it

has been. Anyway, I'm not sure where I was when I wrote this, but

today I'm so happy NOT having implants, I hope I will continue to

feel the joy..............

It's not when the day spins my head,

with beautiful people passing by.

It's later, when it gets to me,

alone, I look, I cry.

Do you recall my first impression-

treasured mirror of years?

Please tell me how did we change

>From happiness to fears?

I gaze deeply and I ask....

Who are you?

Are you trying to destroy me?

What is beauty?

I Close my eyes.....

Can I feel beauty?

Do I know that it's real?

Can I remember the last time I felt needed?

I look around and find,

I'm not the only one.

Yes, you see it too,

You covet and it's fun.

Change would be so wonderful

Just one glimpse makes me crave,

a better way to deem myself

are there others I could save?

Is it safe to look myself now - is anyone looking?