Tears of the Melting Heart -

[Guest guest]

Oh , I hope its all right to cry with you, which I am, even as we stand

here in public. And yes it is heartbreaking and it hurts but I am going to

suggest some heartfelt magic that I hope will help you in your hour of need.

First is you have every right to feel every feeling and if you can find some

shoulders to cry on find them. Second instead of letting the feeling break your

heart let them open your heart to its fullest and learn to be thankful that you

have a heart to feel anything at all. There is all too little heart in modern

man. Third realize that there is something to learn from all of this and that it

probably will not be a permanent separation if you can learn what you need to

learn. The best way to start is to just let her go in peace with your blessings

telling her you will do your best to learn and perhaps by just letting go this

way she will find the courage sooner rather than later to communicate with you.

Things breakdown so easily because we don't listen very well or very deeply to

those closest to us and this does cause a problem. Yes you will probably miss

her but if you use your grief to open you can make friends and have the company

of your own enlarged inner self....

I hope this helps a bit and I wrote HeartHealth many years ago to help people

navigate through the mysteries of ones own heart because that is what I needed

to do to save myself from myself. You are having a forced return to your

vulnerability....if you can capture the experience like a surfer captures a wave

it will pass and who knows what wonderful things will come to you and that might

include one day your beloved daughter....and there I go crying again..... its

not good to block the tears when you feel them but the important key is to not

indulge in the self pity...thats what I used to do when I was young and it was a

killer.....if you find this communication of mine helps then print it out and

keep it near you for a while....and may blessings come your way......

Dr. Mark

----- Original Message -----

From: melizzard11

" Sircus " <sircus@...> wrote:

> No I have not, my question to you would be about your vulnerability, the

> soft underbelly of your being, meaning your tears, your feelings, and where

> are they and where they have been especially the year or so leading up to

> your cancer.

I'm in quite a bit of a quandry, these days, with regard to this. My only

child has decided that she no longer wants me in her life and wants no further

communication with me. I have adored her for the past 23 years, and raised her

all by myself, for the most part. Now, for reasons that she won't discuss with

me, she doesn't want me any more. This has broken my heart more than I can begin

to explain. This grieving is not good for me, but I don't know how to stop it.

xxoo