My New Goal

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I am in rebellion today from my protocol. I haven't taken my

supplements except my Cesium today.

I am taking a day off, going to the gym and sitting in the hot tub

and the dry sauna and doing pretty much NOTHING.

I have days were I want to be CANCER-FREE and today is one of those

days where I AM NOT GOING TO FIGHT IT.

I had two pieces of raw cacao berry clarity chocolate today--7 grams

of sugar in them from malted grains. In between, I had some coconut

yams from the health food store and took myself out for a vegan whole

wheat Indian curry buritto. Yum!!

I want to be normal. I don't want to have cancer. And I am tired of

worrying about dying or the tumor growing.

I am going to the movies tonight and if I had an air popper I would

make me some popcorn and sneak it in.

I am going to realize that life is not ALL about this CANCER.

I am going to die one day and in-between now and my time of death, I

am going to learn for the first time in my life how to relax,

have fun and stop controlling and worrying about the minor details.

I am going to learn how to be lead by faith---not fear;

thoughtfulness---not impulsiveness; action---not panic

I have decided that if I can not live my life with peace and calm,

then it is not a life worth living. Longevity and focusing solely on

being cancer-free will no longer be

my primary goal.

I am seeking inner peace and harmony with myself and others as my

primary reason d'etre. .

I am going to the retreat at www.cedarsprings.org to seek counseling

and to get closer to God and turn it all over to Him. My life is in

His hands, not mine.

Dorr