IT'S AIN'T 'TIL IT'S OVER

[Guest guest]

O.K. Folks, I am getting caught up on all the latest news from

the " family " here at cures for cancer.

For starters, I just got back from working a straight 64 hour shift

on my job, which is on a 75 acre horse ranch 30 miles east of

Portland. It is near Mt. Hood and even with my 4-wheel drive, studs

and chains, I had to park 1 mile from the ranch and walk in and out

to my job. I walked each morning to get the newspaper for my client,

thoroughly enjoying my walk in the snow-packed meadow and surrounding

small lake.

I am still reeling from the news that the tumor is on my heart---

right on it and next to it. My ONLY hope is the alternatives. I don't

think chemo will work for this now and I would not do radiation since

it would destroy lung tissue.

O.K. Some revisisions in my protocol. When I got the news on Tuesday,

the radiologist oncologist did mention that radiation wouldn't

address the cause of my cancer, which is estrogen-driven. So this got

me to thinking (Duh!!) about what could I take that would reduce the

estrogen?

--calcium d-glucarate and D3 (thanks to Arlyn and others from

cures for cancer

--Raw Whey protein with anti-estrogen herbs ----100% hormone free and

cold-processed www.defensenutrition.com. It does have 2 grams of

sugar, but because I am on Cesium Chloride, it prevents the cancer

cells from getting the sugar (per www.cancertutor.com). You take the

whey protein shake for 20 days on/10 days off so your body doesn't

get used to the anti-estrogenic herbs. You continue to take the anti-

estrogen pills during the whole time; however, they are not as strong

as the shake.

Someone yesterday sent me a link about Fish oils and lung mets and I

will start taking those in MAX dosages. Uri with

www.defensenutrition.com had strongly encouraged me to take the fish

oils, but I was stuck on being 100% raw vegan and following Cousens

protocol. For six weeks, I have not followed his advice. I am going

to give it a try. I suppose I don't have a lot of time here to waste

as I have a fast growing tumor, but what else to do? Maybe it has

stopped growing?

I have been re-reading Anne Wigmore's work and she really is the

pioneer in the raw foods movement, the one who got it all going.

I am now eating fermented foods and 1 ruby grapefruit a day as I have

bumped myself to Phase 1.5 of Cousens protocol. But now with adding

whey and fish oil, I am no longer on his protocol 100%, but I will

follow everything else. I have decided to lean more heavily on what I

did back in 1994/95 which was a worse situation then in many ways. I

was terminal then. I followed Anne Wigmore more closely. She allowed

fermented foods from the get-go. She helped cure many, many people of

cancer. She also says there are no incurable diseases.

Jim, one rule I followed throughout my prior battles with this

damn disease, is that if I felt REALLY uncomfortable with something,

I didn't do it. Just by having peace of mind was worth it. But I know

exactly what you are going thru. It is tormenting and frustrating to

say the least to have so many conflicting ideas and theories about

things. This was the hardest thing figuring it all out then, and it

hasn't gotten easier now. Don't be afraid to change your mind on

something.

I accepted my death this week. I accepted the fact that I may not

make it out of this---this takes some pressure off of me. But I have

not surrendered to this disease. I will keep doing everything in my

protocol and within my power to beat this. What if Whey protein makes

tumors grow? What if it reverses it? This is the crap shoot of

cancer, but it is the way it goes. By letting go and knowing that I

may die, it takes a bit of the pressure off of me.

I don't want to die, but sometimes the struggle gets overwhelming and

at times I have felt I am tired of this fight---especially everytime

I get it ALL perfect in my protocol and something like the whey thing

throws it all off. I just ordered $700 worth of the whey protein and

the pills---240 servings of the whey and two months of the pills. The

thing that worries me about the shakes are they are 31mg of protein

in each one. Oh well, here goes....Uri swears by them.

Would appreciate any thoughts here.

It ain't over 'til the fat lady sings.