I just got back from the hospital....

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I just spent two horrible days in the hospital and I kind of just want some

insight.

I've posted before about my ulcerated tumor. Well, it had begun bleeding -

rather, spouting blood, literally, whenever I changed the bandages. Silly me,

not realizing that spouting blood like a geyser was not a good thing, lol. I

was feeling so fatigued and lifeless that I finally decided to go into ER, and

as they removed the bandage, it did it again.

Turns out, it had corroded an artery in the back of my neck and that was what

was spurting blood. They cauterized it, then proceeded to tell me that I was

going to have to stay in the hospital for a long time due to the huge growth on

my front neck and the ulceration in the back.

So basically, I had lost a lot of blood and was extremely anemic, but my tumor

in front was pressing against my trachea and the doctor is worried that it might

start attacking my spinal chord in the back. So of course they started their

sales pitch for immediate and aggressive chemo. They pulled out everything in

the bag to convince me. Honestly, I'm extremely confused and frustrated right

now.

I asked about Rituxan, the doc said it did very little on its own for my type of

lymphoma - Intermediate Diffuse B Cell, and insisted that I get R-CHOP. I asked

about IPT, he poo-pooed that idea and said that wasn't effective for my type of

lymphoma either. I asked about chemo tablets, same response.

I really truly feel that I can beat this naturally. I had a CT scan, the first

one in 1.5 years, and amazingly the cancer has NOT spread one bit in all of this

time. No mets anywhere, it is still concentrated in my neck where it began, so

that tells me that my diet and nutritional supplements have had some type of

impact on it by keeping it from spreading. However, I have to get the tumor to

shrink, I have to make progress toward reversing the cancer and not just

maintaining it.

I have " met " so many wonderful people through this journey, people with the same

type of lymphoma, who have reversed it naturally and maintained that success for

many, many years, as many as 20. I feel like, if they can do it, then surely I

can do it too. But right now, after being hit with the chemo sales pitch, I'm

feeling kind of weak and scared and just want a little reassurance that I'm

choosing the right battle.

I was only allowed to leave after I promised to contact the oncologist within a

week to begin treatment. A part of me ALMOST wants to just go ahead and do it

so that the tumor shrinks because its causing me shortness of breath and affects

my voice. But another part of me is screaming that that is the WORSE thing I

could do to myself. I just walked in the door and came straight here to get

some input from you all - if I had had internet access at the hospital, I would

have been online every minute telling you exactly what was going on!

Right now I'm going to go and bounce on my rebounder, take my supplements and

have a green smoothie and just get some rest and see if I feel better later.

Maybe I need to tweak my supplements a bit? I'm taking:

LDN (still skeptical about)

curcumin

maitake d fraction

vit d3

vit c

ubiquinol

coq10

b17

zymesscence (thinking of switching to Bragg's enzymes for lower price)

digestive enzymes

Haven't been eating as healthy as I should and I know that's a big problem but I

do try to stay consistent. After this hospital stay, I'm back on the wagon and

sticking to mostly vegetarian, I find 100% raw to be too hard on my system.

Thanks for reading! Just kind of shell shocked and needed to vent!

Detwa