Guest guest Posted July 1, 2008 Report Share Posted July 1, 2008 Best help I could give you is for you to post your labs so we can see if your Dr. did the right tests and tell us what meds your on. If you are suffering low testosterone and you treat it all this will go away low T makes one feel like this. Co-Moderator Phil > From: Justus Gent <verilylight@...> > Subject: Heal my Perspective > > Date: Monday, June 30, 2008, 11:36 PM > I have suffered what I call dinity Abuse. It is the assault > of my > self perception. > > I am in search of seeing myself as whole and not broken. I > have > many 'Cut to the bone' experiences. > > In this affliction Hypogonadism I have hid and fled all my > days. > I have problems with concepts and statements like 'Live > life to its > fullest' > > I am exhausted and no longer trust hope. I am as a man > that hides > from a savage wild beast. It sees me and I see it. > Hypogonadism is > crushing me. It is killing me slowly. > > Has anyone had growth or life to their withered blossom? > Can you > help me gain my perspective. It is always from the torment > of > brokenness and never from the state of a good beginning. > > Hope has made me lie to myself. I fear accepting > hypogonadism > because it is not the real me. It is a disease or an > affliction but > it is not me. I have it but can't get rid of it. > > I am like a blind man who had sight for 15 seconds and then > returned > to blindness. > > How can I understand Manhood and The Natural Use of the Sex > > For those of you who have read the bible. I am in distress > as the man > at the pool of Bethesda. Someone always gets in before me > and I have > no one to truly help me. Year after year I know, wait and > hope but > in the end I am just unhealed and let down. > > I don't know how to do this anymore. I need closure. > Existing in the > state of continual trying is a sore evil and daily > vexation. > > Help me escape the prison of my mind. > The scars of heart,the let downs and the mis understanding. > > The Initial joy when I see men who are whole; and then the > sorrow > for to me it is witheld. > > Racism, poverty - Nothing hurts me more than this > Hypogonadism > > If you have the power of truth- Please set me Free. > > Mr. Justus Gent > > > > > ------------------------------------ > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 1, 2008 Report Share Posted July 1, 2008 Hey Justus - welcome to the group - you are in the right place. We all have been there and the good news is it can be fixed. To help you however, we need to know your history and symptoms. For example what test have been conducted and what were your results. Can you get erections and maintain them. Do not be afraid to discuss personal matters for we have all been there. It is a long road but well worth it in the end. By the way you write very well. Arkansas From: Justus Gent <verilylight@...> Subject: Heal my Perspective Date: Monday, June 30, 2008, 10:36 PM I have suffered what I call dinity Abuse. It is the assault of my self perception. I am in search of seeing myself as whole and not broken. I have many 'Cut to the bone' experiences. In this affliction Hypogonadism I have hid and fled all my days. I have problems with concepts and statements like 'Live life to its fullest' I am exhausted and no longer trust hope. I am as a man that hides from a savage wild beast. It sees me and I see it. Hypogonadism is crushing me. It is killing me slowly. Has anyone had growth or life to their withered blossom? Can you help me gain my perspective. It is always from the torment of brokenness and never from the state of a good beginning. Hope has made me lie to myself. I fear accepting hypogonadism because it is not the real me. It is a disease or an affliction but it is not me. I have it but can't get rid of it. I am like a blind man who had sight for 15 seconds and then returned to blindness. How can I understand Manhood and The Natural Use of the Sex For those of you who have read the bible. I am in distress as the man at the pool of Bethesda. Someone always gets in before me and I have no one to truly help me. Year after year I know, wait and hope but in the end I am just unhealed and let down. I don't know how to do this anymore. I need closure. Existing in the state of continual trying is a sore evil and daily vexation. Help me escape the prison of my mind. The scars of heart,the let downs and the mis understanding. The Initial joy when I see men who are whole; and then the sorrow for to me it is witheld. Racism, poverty - Nothing hurts me more than this Hypogonadism If you have the power of truth- Please set me Free. Mr. Justus Gent Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 1, 2008 Report Share Posted July 1, 2008 Thank you Mr. Georgian, I have had 3 testosterone tests in the last 2 months. Testosterone surum 161, Treated with 200mg shot, went down to 137, Test results as of 6/19 collected, reported 6/21 FSH 8.3 mIU/ml LH 4.4 mIU/ml Testosterone Serum 170L ng/dl Free Testosterone 3.0L pg/ml TSH 1.609 Cortisol 7.5 ug/dl Prolactin 5.0 ng/ml Carbon Dioxide, Total was 19L just under range of 20-32 (sodium,potassium, chloride, calcium, all just making range) Current treatment is Testim 1% 1/2 tube of 50mg per 5g tube daily. Given Livitra to take 1/2 tablet 10mg 2-3 times weekly. Made me delusional and confused and did nothing to help stimulate me. I went to my Primary yesterday after a 'meltdown' He said I did not have to take it. He called my Endocronoligst personally. I took a MRI on 6/25. They discussed results and he said the Endocronologist didn't think it was Hypogontropic but will discuss results on 7/8. Please Advise!!!! Heal my Perspective > > Date: Monday, June 30, 2008, 11:36 PM > I have suffered what I call dinity Abuse. It is the assault > of my > self perception. > > I am in search of seeing myself as whole and not broken. I > have > many 'Cut to the bone' experiences. > > In this affliction Hypogonadism I have hid and fled all my > days. > I have problems with concepts and statements like 'Live > life to its > fullest' > > I am exhausted and no longer trust hope. I am as a man > that hides > from a savage wild beast. It sees me and I see it. > Hypogonadism is > crushing me. It is killing me slowly. > > Has anyone had growth or life to their withered blossom? > Can you > help me gain my perspective. It is always from the torment > of > brokenness and never from the state of a good beginning. > > Hope has made me lie to myself. I fear accepting > hypogonadism > because it is not the real me. It is a disease or an > affliction but > it is not me. I have it but can't get rid of it. > > I am like a blind man who had sight for 15 seconds and then > returned > to blindness. > > How can I understand Manhood and The Natural Use of the Sex > > For those of you who have read the bible. I am in distress > as the man > at the pool of Bethesda. Someone always gets in before me > and I have > no one to truly help me. Year after year I know, wait and > hope but > in the end I am just unhealed and let down. > > I don't know how to do this anymore. I need closure. > Existing in the > state of continual trying is a sore evil and daily > vexation. > > Help me escape the prison of my mind. > The scars of heart,the let downs and the mis understanding. > > The Initial joy when I see men who are whole; and then the > sorrow > for to me it is witheld. > > Racism, poverty - Nothing hurts me more than this > Hypogonadism > > If you have the power of truth- Please set me Free. > > Mr. Justus Gent > > > > > ------------ --------- --------- ------ > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 1, 2008 Report Share Posted July 1, 2008 Dan, I have had 3 Testosteron Tests over the last 2 months. 161( treated with 200mg shot) 30 days later after retest 137. Last test 6/21 results Testosterone 170 ng/dl Free Testosterone 3.0 pg/ml FSH 8.3 mIU/mL LH 4.4 mIU/mL TSH 1.609 uIU/ml Cortisol 7.5 ug/dl Prolactin 5..0 ng/ml History -small penis and testicles. Best ever 4 inches errect and 0-1 flaccid Current last errection 2.0 errect. 0-1 flaccid. Current no errection possible, slight blood flow. Penis will ejaculate but painful to do because it is not errect. Only takes a about 30 seconds to get semen but it is very weird. It is not an arousal at all. Its more like when you run out of toothpaste and and beat up the tube. I tried 2 weeks agon and I had to stop. It was hopeless. Current Treatment is Testim 1% 1/2 tube of 50mg from 5g tube once daily Given Lavitra- tried it once- made me feel delusional, no stimulus whatsoever even when forcing it. Took MRI on 6/25. I went to my primary yesterday after a meltdown. Told me not take the Levirta. He called my Endrocrnlogist. He told me MRI was not conclusive for Hyogonotropic Hypogonadism. I will see Endrocronologist on 6/8. Please advise!!! Heal my Perspective Date: Monday, June 30, 2008, 10:36 PM I have suffered what I call dinity Abuse. It is the assault of my self perception. I am in search of seeing myself as whole and not broken. I have many 'Cut to the bone' experiences. In this affliction Hypogonadism I have hid and fled all my days. I have problems with concepts and statements like 'Live life to its fullest' I am exhausted and no longer trust hope. I am as a man that hides from a savage wild beast. It sees me and I see it. Hypogonadism is crushing me. It is killing me slowly. Has anyone had growth or life to their withered blossom? Can you help me gain my perspective. It is always from the torment of brokenness and never from the state of a good beginning. Hope has made me lie to myself. I fear accepting hypogonadism because it is not the real me. It is a disease or an affliction but it is not me. I have it but can't get rid of it. I am like a blind man who had sight for 15 seconds and then returned to blindness. How can I understand Manhood and The Natural Use of the Sex For those of you who have read the bible. I am in distress as the man at the pool of Bethesda. Someone always gets in before me and I have no one to truly help me. Year after year I know, wait and hope but in the end I am just unhealed and let down. I don't know how to do this anymore. I need closure. Existing in the state of continual trying is a sore evil and daily vexation. Help me escape the prison of my mind. The scars of heart,the let downs and the mis understanding. The Initial joy when I see men who are whole; and then the sorrow for to me it is witheld. Racism, poverty - Nothing hurts me more than this Hypogonadism If you have the power of truth- Please set me Free. Mr. Justus Gent Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 1, 2008 Report Share Posted July 1, 2008 Verily Light one thing stands out your Cortisol level it is very low Dr.'s only look for 's when testing this and will tell you your OK your in range yet your very low. This looks like Adrenal Fatigue to me here is some links about this. http://www.lammd.com/A3R_brief_in_doc_format/adrenal_fatigue.cfm http://www.tuberose.com/Adrenal_Glands.html We did this FAQ's on this at this link it's full of info read it and the links in it. You will find labs you can buy a Saliva test that checks this 4 x's in a day. This will show you what your levels look like in the day. http://www.stopthethyroidmadness.com/adrenal-info/faq/ Your labs are lower then mine were I am Hypopituitary it took me 23 yrs to figure this out dam Dr.'s one after the other kept telling me I am Primary meaning my Testis don't work to make enough testosterone. Now that I know this we treat everything. I have been on Cortef for low cortisol now 2 yrs and I now feel the best ever. Your testosterone levels are way to low and doing 1/2 a tube of Testim is not even a starting dose. Are you sure your Dr.'s know how to treat this. Your labs look like your Primary you need to do 2 tubes of Testim then retest in 6 weeks also adding Estradiol to your labs. If this is very high it will take away from the good the Testim is trying to do. If your levels don't get up into the upper 1/3 of your labs range for Total and Free Testosterone then you need to switch to shots I had too the gels just did not get through my skin to get my levels up high enough. Also keep your Estradiol down to about 20 pg/ml. This go by how you feel If you switch to shots start at 100mgs and do them every week. Your feeling like this because you not only have low Testosterone by your Cortisol levels are very low. This will keep you down feeling fatigue, Brain Fog, Depression and a loss of libido with some bad ED. I am also a mod for men's thyroid problems and I tell all then new men to run these labs. http://forums.realthyroidhelp.com/viewtopic.php?f=5 & t=7059 In this link is a link to Dr. 's site read TRT: A Recipe for Success and his HCG update. He is one of the best Dr.'s for low T if your Dr. is not up on this you can ask him if he would test and treat you over the phone with Dr. he dose this. Co-Moderator Phil > > > From: Justus Gent <verilylight> > > Subject: Heal my Perspective > > > > Date: Monday, June 30, 2008, 11:36 PM > > I have suffered what I call dinity Abuse. It is the > assault > > of my > > self perception. > > > > I am in search of seeing myself as whole and not > broken. I > > have > > many 'Cut to the bone' experiences. > > > > In this affliction Hypogonadism I have hid and fled > all my > > days. > > I have problems with concepts and statements like > 'Live > > life to its > > fullest' > > > > I am exhausted and no longer trust hope. I am as a man > > that hides > > from a savage wild beast. It sees me and I see it. > > Hypogonadism is > > crushing me. It is killing me slowly. > > > > Has anyone had growth or life to their withered > blossom? > > Can you > > help me gain my perspective. It is always from the > torment > > of > > brokenness and never from the state of a good > beginning. > > > > Hope has made me lie to myself. I fear accepting > > hypogonadism > > because it is not the real me. It is a disease or an > > affliction but > > it is not me. I have it but can't get rid of it. > > > > I am like a blind man who had sight for 15 seconds and > then > > returned > > to blindness. > > > > How can I understand Manhood and The Natural Use of > the Sex > > > > For those of you who have read the bible. I am in > distress > > as the man > > at the pool of Bethesda. Someone always gets in before > me > > and I have > > no one to truly help me. Year after year I know, wait > and > > hope but > > in the end I am just unhealed and let down. > > > > I don't know how to do this anymore. I need > closure. > > Existing in the > > state of continual trying is a sore evil and daily > > vexation. > > > > Help me escape the prison of my mind. > > The scars of heart,the let downs and the mis > understanding. > > > > The Initial joy when I see men who are whole; and then > the > > sorrow > > for to me it is witheld. > > > > Racism, poverty - Nothing hurts me more than this > > Hypogonadism > > > > If you have the power of truth- Please set me Free. > > > > Mr. Justus Gent > > > > > > > > > > ------------ --------- --------- ------ > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 1, 2008 Report Share Posted July 1, 2008 Thank You so Very, very, very much!!! I will follow up with you as results come in. Am I correct in your recommendation to purchase the saliva test on my own and not have either the primary or endocronoligst order the tests? Heal my Perspective > > > > Date: Monday, June 30, 2008, 11:36 PM > > I have suffered what I call dinity Abuse. It is the > assault > > of my > > self perception. > > > > I am in search of seeing myself as whole and not > broken. I > > have > > many 'Cut to the bone' experiences. > > > > In this affliction Hypogonadism I have hid and fled > all my > > days. > > I have problems with concepts and statements like > 'Live > > life to its > > fullest' > > > > I am exhausted and no longer trust hope. I am as a man > > that hides > > from a savage wild beast. It sees me and I see it. > > Hypogonadism is > > crushing me. It is killing me slowly. > > > > Has anyone had growth or life to their withered > blossom? > > Can you > > help me gain my perspective. It is always from the > torment > > of > > brokenness and never from the state of a good > beginning. > > > > Hope has made me lie to myself. I fear accepting > > hypogonadism > > because it is not the real me. It is a disease or an > > affliction but > > it is not me. I have it but can't get rid of it. > > > > I am like a blind man who had sight for 15 seconds and > then > > returned > > to blindness. > > > > How can I understand Manhood and The Natural Use of > the Sex > > > > For those of you who have read the bible. I am in > distress > > as the man > > at the pool of Bethesda. Someone always gets in before > me > > and I have > > no one to truly help me. Year after year I know, wait > and > > hope but > > in the end I am just unhealed and let down. > > > > I don't know how to do this anymore. I need > closure. > > Existing in the > > state of continual trying is a sore evil and daily > > vexation. > > > > Help me escape the prison of my mind. > > The scars of heart,the let downs and the mis > understanding. > > > > The Initial joy when I see men who are whole; and then > the > > sorrow > > for to me it is witheld. > > > > Racism, poverty - Nothing hurts me more than this > > Hypogonadism > > > > If you have the power of truth- Please set me Free. > > > > Mr. Justus Gent > > > > > > > > > > ------------ --------- --------- ------ > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 2, 2008 Report Share Posted July 2, 2008 You can try having a Dr. give you a Saliva test but like I told you most Dr.'s don't believe in Adrenal Fatigue they just look for you to be below or above the labs range. If your in it then they tell you your ok. Endos are the worst Dr.'s for low testosterone, thyroid and Adrenal problems. We have so many men come here saying there Dr. an Endo said they are fine with levels of testosterone at levels of 300 bottom of range at about 250. Or younger men saying they are below normal but the Endo told them they are to young to go on Testosterone meds. Best Dr.'s for this are DO Dr.'s. American Academy of Osteopathy Find an osteopath in US and some other countries http://www.academyofosteopathy.org/findphys.cfm Find an osteopath http://www.osteopathic.org/index.cfm?PageID=findado_main General Osteopathic Council Find an osteopath in almost any country http://www.osteopathy.org.uk/find_osteo/ Healthfinder Find an osteopath near you in the US. Also links to site to explain what an osteopath is. http://www.healthfinder.gov/Scripts/SearchContext.asp?topic=3786 *I recommend avoiding osteopathic endos. They seem to be the same as regular endos. You can get the test for less money at this these labs. 1) LAB WORK from Canary Club. You can choose from two lab facilities–Diagnos Tech (saliva test for adrenals & reproductive hormones) or ZRT (thyroid, adrenals, reproductive hormones). I need to tell you the saliva tests for sex hormones are not anygood they do a lot of tests in this the only one you need to read is Cortisol. Here is a link showing the stages of Adrenal Problems you start out very high and as time goes on the Adrenals can't put out cortisol they are over worked so you start to see in the later stages levels going down and DHEA takes a hit with it. http://www.chronicfatigue.org/ASI%201%20.html Try to find out whats wrong and treat it you will find you will become a new man and you will get your sex life back. Co-Moderator Phil > > > > > From: Justus Gent <verilylight> > > > Subject: Heal my Perspective > > > > > > Date: Monday, June 30, 2008, 11:36 PM > > > I have suffered what I call dinity Abuse. It is > the > > assault > > > of my > > > self perception. > > > > > > I am in search of seeing myself as whole and not > > broken. I > > > have > > > many 'Cut to the bone' experiences. > > > > > > In this affliction Hypogonadism I have hid and > fled > > all my > > > days. > > > I have problems with concepts and statements like > > 'Live > > > life to its > > > fullest' > > > > > > I am exhausted and no longer trust hope. I am as > a man > > > that hides > > > from a savage wild beast. It sees me and I see > it. > > > Hypogonadism is > > > crushing me. It is killing me slowly. > > > > > > Has anyone had growth or life to their withered > > blossom? > > > Can you > > > help me gain my perspective. It is always from > the > > torment > > > of > > > brokenness and never from the state of a good > > beginning. > > > > > > Hope has made me lie to myself. I fear accepting > > > hypogonadism > > > because it is not the real me. It is a disease or > an > > > affliction but > > > it is not me. I have it but can't get rid of > it. > > > > > > I am like a blind man who had sight for 15 > seconds and > > then > > > returned > > > to blindness. > > > > > > How can I understand Manhood and The Natural Use > of > > the Sex > > > > > > For those of you who have read the bible. I am in > > distress > > > as the man > > > at the pool of Bethesda. Someone always gets in > before > > me > > > and I have > > > no one to truly help me. Year after year I know, > wait > > and > > > hope but > > > in the end I am just unhealed and let down. > > > > > > I don't know how to do this anymore. I need > > closure. > > > Existing in the > > > state of continual trying is a sore evil and > daily > > > vexation. > > > > > > Help me escape the prison of my mind. > > > The scars of heart,the let downs and the mis > > understanding. > > > > > > The Initial joy when I see men who are whole; and > then > > the > > > sorrow > > > for to me it is witheld. > > > > > > Racism, poverty - Nothing hurts me more than this > > > Hypogonadism > > > > > > If you have the power of truth- Please set me > Free. > > > > > > Mr. Justus Gent > > > > > > > > > > > > > > > ------------ --------- --------- ------ > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 2, 2008 Report Share Posted July 2, 2008 Hey Justus - I read Phil's response to you and he is right on target. Follow the advice in his response would be my recommendation also. A lot of men can not absorb the gels/creams. The other thing I would consider is shots. For me they were a life saver. Do not do 200 mg shots - that is too much - the large doses converts to estradiol which also negates the benefits. 100 mg every 7 days at a minimum is the standard now. I take 50 mg two times a week. Arkansas From: Justus Gent <verilylight> Subject: Heal my Perspective Date: Monday, June 30, 2008, 10:36 PM I have suffered what I call dinity Abuse. It is the assault of my self perception. I am in search of seeing myself as whole and not broken. I have many 'Cut to the bone' experiences. In this affliction Hypogonadism I have hid and fled all my days. I have problems with concepts and statements like 'Live life to its fullest' I am exhausted and no longer trust hope. I am as a man that hides from a savage wild beast. It sees me and I see it. Hypogonadism is crushing me. It is killing me slowly. Has anyone had growth or life to their withered blossom? Can you help me gain my perspective. It is always from the torment of brokenness and never from the state of a good beginning. Hope has made me lie to myself. I fear accepting hypogonadism because it is not the real me. It is a disease or an affliction but it is not me. I have it but can't get rid of it. I am like a blind man who had sight for 15 seconds and then returned to blindness. How can I understand Manhood and The Natural Use of the Sex For those of you who have read the bible. I am in distress as the man at the pool of Bethesda. Someone always gets in before me and I have no one to truly help me. Year after year I know, wait and hope but in the end I am just unhealed and let down. I don't know how to do this anymore. I need closure. Existing in the state of continual trying is a sore evil and daily vexation. Help me escape the prison of my mind. The scars of heart,the let downs and the mis understanding. The Initial joy when I see men who are whole; and then the sorrow for to me it is witheld. Racism, poverty - Nothing hurts me more than this Hypogonadism If you have the power of truth- Please set me Free. Mr. Justus Gent Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 2, 2008 Report Share Posted July 2, 2008 Thanks I will order the saliva tests. How often should I test to see if I am absorbing the Testim Gel. I went to Endo this morning. You were right on with his attitude. Obtaining product is not a problem I have plenty of Testim. He said to increase to 1 tube per day. My question is. Should I give 1 tube a try for 2 weeks and test or just do 2 tubes and test after 2weeks or 30 days. How long between dosage changes should I wait to be retested????? Heal my Perspective Date: Monday, June 30, 2008, 10:36 PM I have suffered what I call dinity Abuse. It is the assault of my self perception. I am in search of seeing myself as whole and not broken. I have many 'Cut to the bone' experiences. In this affliction Hypogonadism I have hid and fled all my days. I have problems with concepts and statements like 'Live life to its fullest' I am exhausted and no longer trust hope. I am as a man that hides from a savage wild beast. It sees me and I see it. Hypogonadism is crushing me. It is killing me slowly. Has anyone had growth or life to their withered blossom? Can you help me gain my perspective. It is always from the torment of brokenness and never from the state of a good beginning. Hope has made me lie to myself. I fear accepting hypogonadism because it is not the real me. It is a disease or an affliction but it is not me. I have it but can't get rid of it. I am like a blind man who had sight for 15 seconds and then returned to blindness. How can I understand Manhood and The Natural Use of the Sex For those of you who have read the bible. I am in distress as the man at the pool of Bethesda. Someone always gets in before me and I have no one to truly help me. Year after year I know, wait and hope but in the end I am just unhealed and let down. I don't know how to do this anymore. I need closure. Existing in the state of continual trying is a sore evil and daily vexation. Help me escape the prison of my mind. The scars of heart,the let downs and the mis understanding. The Initial joy when I see men who are whole; and then the sorrow for to me it is witheld. Racism, poverty - Nothing hurts me more than this Hypogonadism If you have the power of truth- Please set me Free. Mr. Justus Gent Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 2, 2008 Report Share Posted July 2, 2008 Yes do what the Dr. told you to do then test again in 2 weeks or as soon after this as you can. Co-Moderator Phil > > From: Justus Gent <verilylight> > Subject: Heal my Perspective > > Date: Monday, June 30, 2008, 10:36 PM > > I have suffered what I call dinity Abuse. It is the assault > of my > self perception. > > I am in search of seeing myself as whole and not broken. I > have > many 'Cut to the bone' experiences. > > In this affliction Hypogonadism I have hid and fled all my > days. > I have problems with concepts and statements like 'Live > life to its > fullest' > > I am exhausted and no longer trust hope. I am as a man that > hides > from a savage wild beast. It sees me and I see it. > Hypogonadism is > crushing me. It is killing me slowly. > > Has anyone had growth or life to their withered blossom? > Can you > help me gain my perspective. It is always from the torment > of > brokenness and never from the state of a good beginning. > > Hope has made me lie to myself. I fear accepting > hypogonadism > because it is not the real me. It is a disease or an > affliction but > it is not me. I have it but can't get rid of it. > > I am like a blind man who had sight for 15 seconds and then > returned > to blindness. > > How can I understand Manhood and The Natural Use of the Sex > > For those of you who have read the bible. I am in distress > as the man > at the pool of Bethesda. Someone always gets in before me > and I have > no one to truly help me. Year after year I know, wait and > hope but > in the end I am just unhealed and let down. > > I don't know how to do this anymore. I need closure. > Existing in the > state of continual trying is a sore evil and daily > vexation. > > Help me escape the prison of my mind. > The scars of heart,the let downs and the mis understanding. > > The Initial joy when I see men who are whole; and then the > sorrow > for to me it is witheld. > > Racism, poverty - Nothing hurts me more than this > Hypogonadism > > If you have the power of truth- Please set me Free. > > Mr. Justus Gent > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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