Question regarding Testosterone or possibly adrenals?

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Brief background:

Was found with low T and later Lowish cortisol levels.

My testosterone has bounced up and down from anywhere between 8 and 22 (range

8-30)

Cortisol levels pretty much the same, sometimes smack in the middle sometimes

lower 1/3 of range.

Did acth stim test that according to doctor was okay alltho the cortisol did not

double not even close. Went from 480 to 670. Doc said this is perfectly normal.

Some dont agree.

I tried isocort. Felt better sometimes but was very much a jojo effect. Good bad

good bad etc.

Now:

I tried testogel for 1 week with 1 pill of dim. This made me feel pretty good

generally but i felt abit uneasy sometimes. Still not bad.

I also have gluten intolerans and im scheduled for endoscopy and colonscopy so i

decided to go off the testogel and c if possibly an awnser to all this could be

found during my exams so i did not require trt at all perhaps.

Now the following week i feel good even tho not on gel alltho with some dim

still when i felt like e2 was highish, then i start feeling really bad and have

anxiety and insomnia. My penis still okay but i have really low energy at this

point. I go back on the gel for 3 days cause me and my girlfriend having the

first weekend together for a really long time so i want it to include some sex

atleast. Feel better with gel, anxiety goes away but still not perfect.

Now after weekend i come home and have the endoscopy on tuesday so i go of the

gel again thinking i want to do all these exams " clean " and possibly find the

cause for all this.. Now anxiety comes back really bad and my body aches all

over and my energy is down the drain. My scrotum is pressed really hard against

my pelvis and penis is shrivelled up. Yet this morning i had a really good

erection when waking up. Then 1hour later i could not get it up att all even

with stimulation. This never happends to me normally even when not on the gel at

all. My worst symptom is still that im feeling so god damn stressed all the time

and my face looks tight and not relaxed at all. I even got cramps in my jaw

muscles. My stomach has come to a halt and my appetite is crap. I went to the

bathroom 5 times to pee allrdy the last 5 hours.

I realize that going on and off testosterone like that isent a good idea but

what is done is done.. So please dont lecture me on that

Is this a normal reaction to coming of the gel? or did my adrenals somehow got

burnt out again from taking testogel for a week and then a few days again?

Is anxiety and feeling stressed out with insomnia etc from low T and not

cortisol? Also i feel like my shoulers are attached to my ears these days and

not at the bottom of the neck. If low T cause all this then how can one have

good morning erection then 1 hour later no wood at all when stimulated?

Ah pew sorry for rant im just abit lost right now. Is it as simple as low T ?

Thanks in advance for you thoughts!