Penis size and what primary Hypogonadism took away conversation

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Hello all, I feel more comfortable sharing in this kind of place compared to a

PE forum.

Met a nice woman online; we just had an over 7 hour phone conversation. Our last

30 min's revolved around her expectation regarding penis size. I am glad it went

this way because it gave me the opportunity to see if we could basically move

forward.

She is considered BBW which I do not mind. It's a woman's internal and external

beauty that matters and she is very internally beautiful as well as externally,

especially coming from a different country and setting up residence locally

where I live.

Given her body frame, she stated she has a preference of a larger penis, but

could not give me specifics in what size range would be best for her. She said,

upon me asking, her last boyfriends were on the bigger side, yet could not give

me specifics.

I then stated, I will send you pictures of my penis so you can compare and then

importantly, decide before we move forward because I do not want to establish

feelings for you and have you be unfulfilled when we do have sex.

I figured this would be a smart and rational move on my part; let her see to

compare so Ill know now. She stated, the only way she would know if she is

fulfilled, would be to actually do the act.

However, primary Hypogonadism took me having an above average penis away when I

was younger. I had surgery at 10, to lower my testes that should have been done

when I was a baby. Afterward, doctors did not check if I had low testosterone,

therefore, I did not go through puberty normally or it just affected my secondly

sexual characteristics of my testicles and penis size.

I had to bust my butt with PE just to get to 6.6 from 5.8. My rational line of

questioning which she said made her uncomfortable was to see if my current size

would be within her expectation of not slipping out or God forbid – not

reaching.

I know the added risk of courting someone who is BBW. The extra weight and how

it would impact my size. When I was smaller, my lone situation I played it safe

and I didn't try positions aside from her on top, which she said was fine. I

wasn't good at the missionary position, because I did not try to establish

myself properly, but she liked it and I was good at reverse cow gal.

Back to her, her last two bf were on the larger side and she has a size

expectation due to her weight. My position is: I rather her see it now, then for

me to find out if we do have sex. Of course I would be inexperience but game

without the fear of losing an erection especially with T., in my system. However

what if we try the doggy style position and it doesn't reach inward that would

make her fulfilled?

Do not get me wrong, she is a wonderful person with a lot of potential with a

unique accent as well.

I am me. I have to live everyday with want primary Hypogonadism took away. If I

was allowed going through puberty with HCG, etc I wouldn't have this major life

crisis that is ongoing for me. All of my depression and thereafter has been a

result of the unhealthy way I conditioned myself to see my penis and thus my

life.

I cannot say this to her, but of course I could not reassure her that my penis

was big enough to reach, because I have no idea if it could and enough to

fulfill her. She picked up on this naturally and I wasn't trying to be

self-conscious; I was being honest.

She was very saddened it appeared just now to the point of maybe crying due to

this line of questioning. She regretted it, but I did not. I stated, it was best

that I knew about your expectation and if I can meet it or not because you

deserve a man that can. I have no positive expectation of moving forward with a

woman. Why? Situations like this.

This is my whole life: believing other men could meet these kinds of sexual

expectations.

I am not sure if other men here have experienced something similar to this, if

you have please share.

-Have a rewarding and peaceful weekend-