Re: [Lyme-aid] Apologies from Marta

[Guest guest]

Dear List,

I owe Jane an apology big time for my last post, wish I had read

the remainder of my incoming mail before I sent that one off. I have also

been told by in private mail that she knows who Jane is, so that is

certainly good enough for me. I guess it is my turn for some Lyme paranoia.

I actually thought she may be someone who caused me a lot of grief last

summer. My most humble apologies. I am not normally known to fly off the

handle as I did, and be so suspecting, but the posts really blew me away. I

just put myself in poor Lovette's and Jeannine's place and felt this was an

awful attack on them. I think the words in Jane's letter were harsh and her

claims for working behind the scenes anonymously implied that she knew more

and better than we did. I am still very unclear about what is wrong with

the Gettysburg Times article. Maybe because I am not an insider???

I still feel huge hurt and anger that Jane and posted as they did

about the rally, I hurt for Lovette who has done so much to organize this

rally and her amazing efforts on behalf of us all with the G-burg Rally. I

think this would have played out much better if it was done by private mail

and not by an open letter to Lyme-aid. did give lots of credit to

Lovette for her efforts in her letter(s) but she certainly did agree with

Jane's posting in many other ways. Jane did not once mention Lovette in her

letter, only attacked the fact that we were making a sham of the rally due

to having a " party " afterward and claimed the article was a PR disaster.

I just did not understand what was going through 's mind, I thought

I knew her much better, I knew she liked to kid around and it sounded to me

as if she had been brainwashed by Jane and some anonymous others. I just

could not believe either of them announcing they were not coming to the

rally as well as the anonymous others that they knew of, for reasons I

still am not thoroughly aware of (inside stuff?) Both Jane and did

wrote in their letters that they realized they would be flamed and would not

respond further on these subjects. This made me feel totally impotent.

That is why I called it dropping a bomb and running for cover.

I was very wrong as moderator to post some of the hurtful things I posted

on Lyme-aid regarding both Jane and , they were giving their opinions,

and regardless of the fact that I assumed it was hurtful to Lovette,

Jeannine and many others, I should not have reacted as strongly as I did. I

guess my subject heading and the phrase " Don't rain on my Parade " explains

my feelings about this whole matter the best. I am deeply sorry especially

to who has been my friend on and off list for quite awhile and I do

hope she forgives me for the things I wrote. I don't blame her if she

doesn't. As for Jane, I do hope to meet her someday and apologize for my

part in this godawful mess in person.

Sincerely,

Marta

>From: rmcmur3194@...

>

>ok gang......TRUCE..... KNOW WHAT WE JUST PROVED ....WE REALLY ARE

>FAMILY....WE FIGHT LIKE MY 2 KIDS......BEAT THE CRAP OUTTA EACH OTHER THAN

>DEFEND EACH OTHER TO THE UPMOST.....SOME NASTY THINGS WERE SAID BY ME AND

>OTHERS......I WAS JUST INFORMED THAT I SPENT 2 HOURS WITH JANE IN NYC...SHE

>IS A REAL PERSON NEEDED TO PUT A FACE TO A NAME.....HAVE TALKED TO

>OTHERS......PLEASE LETS ALL STAY TOGETHER....DESPITS " FAMILY SQUABBLES....

>LOVE YA ALL

>REID