Reiki re-attunement and question...

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I had a great experience today. I got re-attuned to usui reiki level

I. The only reiki attunement I've had in person has been to level I.

Unlike my first reiki attunement, the teacher really took her time

when giving each of us the attunement. I felt like a lot of blockages

I have all over my body were clearing up. I feel like I have so many

blockages all over, especially on my hands, head, heart, and spine. It

was nice to meet with other like minded people, too. I'm going to do

reiki on myself and meditate everyday now. I'm going to try to think

about my chakras (especially over the next 21 days) everyday also.

And I realized something that I've been doing wrong. Usually, I try to

think positively, but I didn't realize how much my thoughts affect

everything. The lady that attuned me was saying how she has a friend

with a lot of problems. Her friend always says " it could be worse, "

and then... it does get worse. I'm going to try to be more mindful of

my thoughts now and imagine everything already being how I want it to be.

I feel... happy. But, despite this, there's also the feeling of

something negative outside me (from behind my back). It makes me feel

cold. I know it wants to make blockages that hurt me and so forth

(I've mentioned this in more detail in other posts). Unlike most

psychic attacks, it specifically wants to attack *me* even when I make

it more difficult by fighting it off. My question for the group is

this: I know reiki is always with you once you've been attuned, but

can something interfere with your ability to send healing? I've been

attuned for awhile now, and everytime I practiced reiki I never felt

anything. I can always feel when people send to me though, and I'm

pretty sensitive to energy in general. Now I think that reiki is just

very subtle feeling (at least in my case). Perhaps it will get easier

to feel the more I practice?

I think to get over what is currently afflicting me I will need strong

support from others (as much as I want to do everything myself). I

will have to utilize everything that I can: energy healing, salt,

cyrstals, magic, sage/incense/oils, spirit guides/angels/god, etc. I

hope I can get the reiki level II attunement soon. I also hope that I

can get better at healing myself, and make a strong shield (in

addition to grounding/centering).

Oh, and thank you to everyone who has sent me healing (in response to

my last request). You guys are wonderful!!!