Re: A Stolen Blog

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> Air Words from Little Miss ASIJ

>Love this..so, many I am sure have felt this way at one time or

another...Beautiful you are and God Bless little one ASIJ along with you ..Love

light happiness within...

P.S...May I share a title of a little book with alot of meaning I read the

other day to my little ones and had to smile when tears started running down

for so much meaning and true as your message here..LOVE IS A FAMILY..by ROMA

DOWNEY..hihly recommend for single parents yet Special for all..Love & Give

Special self a Big Hug & little one too, please..Respectfully Diane

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> I didn't realize it had been so long since I'd posted anything. Almost like I

disappeared off the face of the earth. But I'm still here, just going through a

silent spell I guess.

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> I was just in the living room talking with Mr. ASIJ about some things I'd been

feeling lately. For several days now…almost like my heart and soul are hurting.

Broken, but really nothing to be broken about. It took me a minute or two to

identify just what was going on. Its taken me a few days to speak about it to

anyone.

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> All of a sudden I want to cry most of the time again. About nothing. About

anything. About everything. About how messy my house has gotten. About those

weeds, or whatever they are, growing outside of the fence in my front yard and

no matter how hard I wish it – they just won't go away. About the lawn needing

mowing and it won't stop raining long enough for the grass to dry so I can cut

it. About the messy backyard. About the fact that I still believe (even after 12

years since being divorced) what Mr. Ex told me…that I'm a bad wife, a bad

mother, A BAD PERSON! About the fact that I don't have many good friends. (Of

course I don't, who wants to be friends with A BAD PERSON?) Not counting my

family, there are only two people in this whole entire world who I believe love

me unconditionally.

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> STOP RIGHT THERE! Whatever happened to slapping a smile on my face and being

happy? What happened to counting my blessings? What happened to MY ENCHANTED

LIFE???

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> My enchanted life never left. I guess I've checked out for a minute or two but

my life is still just as enchanting as ever. My house is messy…I am thankful I

HAVE a house. I have dirty dishes in my kitchen sink right now…I am thankful we

have plenty of food so we can mess up dishes. My front and backyards look

atrocious…I am thankful I have nature right outside my window. The rainy days…I

am thankful for this rain. And Mr. Ex…I wish him well. He had no idea what he

was talking about. Friends…they are everywhere and its up to me to open my arms

and include them in my life. Those two friends who love me…I am SO thankful that

those two people are already in my life and they won't ever leave me.

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> So why is the title of this post " Air Words From Little Miss ASIJ " ? I'm glad

you asked. Just this morning I was laying in bed talking to Little Miss ASIJ.

She and Mr. ASIJ had slept in and I had been up for awhile. Crying. And crying

and crying. Thinking that awful thought…I AM A BAD PERSON. By the time Little

Miss ASIJ woke up I had finally stopped crying and was trying to look pleasant

She didn't know I'd been crying or what I'd been crying about. While we were

talking, she started acting like she was writing words on my forehead. I asked

" What are you doing? Feels like you're writing words. She smiled and I asked her

what was she writing. She said " The best person ever. "

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> Wow, I should have realized right then and there how ridiculous my thoughts

had been. Little Miss ASIJ is the most enchanting person EVER and she writes on

my forehead " the best person ever " , then whoa Nellie…I'M THE BEST PERSON EVER!!!

If you don't believe it, it's written on my forehead and if I forget, all I have

to do is look in the mirror. Sure I have to use my imagination to see air words,

but the words are there. I felt her write them.

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> I am thankful for air words from Little Miss ASIJ.

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