Not Kidding

[Guest guest]

Commitment, devotion, inspiration, and experience inside begins a journey where we can take time off from regular life here and seek others in books and groups that guide us along on our inner journey. Much has to be unlearned in equal measure to just how much learning brings because our beginning here develops a coping infrastructure that mirrors the limits of our parent's motives. To some it may seem like a whirlwind of confusion drowning helplessly in continual distraction, so a book, a good friend, a group, a teacher or guide can become like a hand reaching out to save us tossing about lost in a turbulent sea. From these lost metaphors of "regular" life any one thing can look pretty darn good when we don't seem to have any more energy to face just another disappointment, so our perspective of separation from spirit and God can perform as tremendous motivation to want to unlearn, let go and commit to turning inside.

No matter what leads us to meditation there is a lot of work to "clean house" with willingness, humility, and honesty to get rid of resentments, guilt of separation from God, arrogance, denial, and defiance. All stepping stones on this inner journey lead to advanced forgiveness where we unlearn even more to experience glimpses of visions that can inspire us even past the very things that seemed to lead us inside. Leaving the language of sacrifice behind is like having a good "real time" antivirus to heal our victim/victimizer perceptions as our new mind of delight and love develops at infinitely faster speeds. Advanced forgiveness replaces ideas of limited forgiveness where we forgive those that hurt us as if we appear the "grander" human intimating that others are beneath our understanding and compassion.

We may ask for help to forgive from Holy Spirit within because we have learned that we ourselves are not capable of this divine act, since we are the ones tangled up in our perceptions in the first place. Only more time with Holy Spirit brings awareness of a sort of a forgiveness bridge, unseen and illusive, except with Holy Spirit helping during forgiveness prayers. Each inner experience of forgiveness is one more step on the bridge and sort of feels like forgiveness with Holy Spirit performs like the miracle underpinning support for our journey across the feeling waters and turbulent seas. It is a wonder of ecstasy to accumulate these early lessons when some difficult steps weave together for the courage and strength to trust later more difficult steps.

Such nurturing, kindness, and innocence is experienced just inside that very gradually we may want to remain even more committed, devoted, and inspired to experience treasured inner perceptions enough to let go of former gifts that served their purpose to get us to this inner world. Many healing experiences come from finding sort of inner demons of ego, fear, and guilt resting right next to our inner source of great light and it makes common sense that the light, like love inside, may bring forth everything that isn't. The more light we can activate within, the fewer shadows lurk within from these forgiveness experiences while outside more light and love begins to miracle twinkle and almost appear like stars out, and within, our fascinating new perceptions.

It helps to learn a discipline of asking God for even more inspiration to turn in because we will learn just how much our unconscious guilt tricks us into believing that it is our entire fault that we are separate from others and God. If we can imagine us as cowards of fear and guilt invented to require punishment, then our ego performs like a fox in the hen pen where we keep scratching around lost in some sort of malicious dream just like prey as a bunch of clucking chickens. We and our World are illusions and reflections on sulfur smoke from unconscious guilt requiring justice, where mercy has been hidden inside other dimensions until we realize we are the energy that activates the light of love for all life; and when we really shine with innocence all shadows of duality seem to disappear. With a new forgiving mind and as light itself, then, wherever light and love look we can only perceive our ONENESS without any ever shadows able to appear.

When we are lost or just beginning our inner journey, our perceptions of good books, healing groups, and good teachers seem like miracles to cling to, and when we get to experience more and more inner Peace, a new confidence changes our earlier, more needy perceptions. Looking sort of "back" in our process gives the depth perception of two perspectives and in and of itself now can become a great lesson of new compassion. We may want to become even more grateful and confident about our connection to God even as we let go of earlier people, books, and guiding lessons. I remember thinking that no book or teacher can ever replace the joy of our portable inner paradise and our own personal connection with Holy Spirit and God. When we can receive our authentic Guidance in the form of gratitude for everything weaving together as our compass in life, then we experience others as savior sparks of God, never separate for one instant from God or even us.

Continual forgiveness prayers, meditation, and writing from inner experiences with an inner poetic rhythm every day still remain as the things I do here, but former books, and teachers of the World seem less a priority than new perceptions of immortal love and kind nurturing inside. The gender projection issue of our human race and parents generating continual new form of linear time and human space seems like one of the greatest mysteries within our human perception of the World. Since even that we think we are here speaks to our unconscious guilt, and that the very form of us includes only parents and children, and that parents and children are merely gender forms, then unconscious guilt only exists in duality gender forms that continually project unconscious guilt onto each other as if this issue remains the fox in the hen pen of our limited little world.

Just like a book, group, or good teacher perception can change in our new developing forgiving mind, so to can our perception of others change in priority when we trade the virulence of the world in for the love and nurturing inside with Holy Spirit and God. A vision of a "Kindness Fractal" where everyone and everything outside is connected for the divine purpose of magnanimity and benevolence, inside, allows new perceptions of relief and love that prioritizes even more devotion and commitment to meditation inside. Thank God that we get to learn to let go of books and groups outside before we even toy with the former almost immoral idea of letting go of other people outside as adventure distractions. The step that has come is that since all people are one gender or another and that gender itself manifests including projections of unconscious guilt, then others will always include the haunting endless seeming drama of just how mirrors of our very selves fade into forever illusions.

In spite of future lessons of newer compassion and kindness, others will still commit, devote, and inspire experience with each other as man and woman very successfully, because we get to take every experience of love with us as we continue to come and go. Lost people have needs and perceptions, found people have needs and perceptions, more enlightened people have needs and perceptions, but inside at our kindness fractal center we all are serving very well just the precise way we are. Our devotion to life here as humans gives perceptions about the value of life here as a priority, but our devotion to our inner life can change Worldly perceptions that seem to even demand that there are gender angels and even wings. Since learning is compassion and since humility can never be justly claimed here, then a kind, gentle, willingness of gratitude experiencing forgiveness with Holy Spirit may be a top priority for any human mirror.