Guest guest Posted February 17, 2001 Report Share Posted February 17, 2001 ANN - ((((don't just say 'youll shut up'!!)))) i for one... really enjoyed reading what you wrote - its where we ALL are ... and if we aren't *today*... we will be at another time! Just want to encourage you to HANG IN THERE... it is SOO tough to go through... I've never done GSE - only using a purge with bentonite, which really cuts down on the herxheimer reaction (die off) ... and it sounds like you are feeling it big time... I also know what you feel like as you watch 'life' passing you by - but i noticed you said " all my friends are.... " and that's wonderful = YOU STILL HAVE FRIENDS!!! Mine all sort of disappeared over the last 8 years of being so sick....!! So, when you start doing better... you'll be having fun as well. Just want to say here that I'm at 50% reduction in pain and brain fog with only diet thus far and I'm AMAZED. But I must also say that I had been on guaifenesin for a whole year for my CFS/FM and that was absolutely HORRID. If I had thought I was sick before... boy... i really GOT IT BIG TIME on that stuff. The worst was the emotional/mental stuff... anyway - so now, being off guai for about a month - and on a pretty restrictive diet... i'm just happy to say i'm among the living sorry for the ramblin' here... wendy Whinge.... Evening, folks. You'll probably want to delete this right now if you're having a bad day- I need a whinge, and you guys are the only people I know who'll even begin to understand. 1. Bread - I spent a fortune on a gluten-free bread mix, which the manufacturer swore would rise fine without yeast if I put in extra baking powder. I followed his instructions to the letter, and hours and hours a and a LOT of mess later, I had a pathetic dollop of vile- tasting cooked dough about an inch deep. Of course it'll rise!', he said. 'Trid it myself', he said. Hah! Not to be discouraged, I decided to let it cool, split it horizontally, cover it in stuff, cook it and declare it pizza. I left it to one side, didn't bother to cover it, and I've just gone downstairs to find my kitten licking it industriously. Possibly the world's most expensive cat food. AND I bet she throws up afterwards..... :-| 2. Die off. It's lasted over a week now, and all the water, milk thistle and vitamin C in the world aren't helping. I hate it!!! I feel utterly, utterly dreadful, want to just cry all the time, my head's spinning, my throat hurts and I just want it to end. I've cut back the GSE but it's made precious little difference. Bleurgh. Still, die-off, sgood, right? We want die-off. We welcome die-off. Hurrah. 3. Molybdenum - not ONE of the five major health-food outlets in Cardiff sell it on its own. I've had to buy a trace mineral complex, which is not necessarily a bad thing, but it's capsules, and I'm not convinced I'll absorb anything non-chewable. Guess I'll crack a capsule open and do it that way. Yeuch. 4. Social life - I want it back! Most of my friends are out at a party tonight, and none of them, not even Louis, thought to even tell me about it, let alone invite me. I am SO sick of being left at home alone. It's bad enough having to say 'Sorry - not well enough today', but when people just assume you won't be up to things and automatically leave you out of their plans, that really, really hurts. Not that I could have gone out tonight if they'd paid me, but would it have killed them to at least mention it? I just feel like a non-person at the moment, a living, walking illness - like this thing has eaten my essence and there's precious little of ME left. I'm sick of being ill, of not being able to go out to work, of being stuck at home 7 days a week, mostly on my own, of being forgotten by my friends. I haven't had an evening out with friends since....let's think....September last year, and even then I had to come home early because I got so dizzy and ill. This is driving me nuts, and I want it over. I'm sorry. I'll shut up now. Just needed to get it out of my system. Normal service will be resumed as soon as I've cleaned up the cat- sick..... Ann ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ http://www.willow-web.net Quality Web Design ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Send blank message to candidiasis-unsubscribeonelist if you want to UNSUBSCRIBE ! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted February 17, 2001 Report Share Posted February 17, 2001 Evening, folks. You'll probably want to delete this right now if you're having a bad day- I need a whinge, and you guys are the only people I know who'll even begin to understand. 1. Bread - I spent a fortune on a gluten-free bread mix, which the manufacturer swore would rise fine without yeast if I put in extra baking powder. I followed his instructions to the letter, and hours and hours a and a LOT of mess later, I had a pathetic dollop of vile- tasting cooked dough about an inch deep. Of course it'll rise!', he said. 'Trid it myself', he said. Hah! Not to be discouraged, I decided to let it cool, split it horizontally, cover it in stuff, cook it and declare it pizza. I left it to one side, didn't bother to cover it, and I've just gone downstairs to find my kitten licking it industriously. Possibly the world's most expensive cat food. AND I bet she throws up afterwards..... :-| 2. Die off. It's lasted over a week now, and all the water, milk thistle and vitamin C in the world aren't helping. I hate it!!! I feel utterly, utterly dreadful, want to just cry all the time, my head's spinning, my throat hurts and I just want it to end. I've cut back the GSE but it's made precious little difference. Bleurgh. Still, die-off, sgood, right? We want die-off. We welcome die-off. Hurrah. 3. Molybdenum - not ONE of the five major health-food outlets in Cardiff sell it on its own. I've had to buy a trace mineral complex, which is not necessarily a bad thing, but it's capsules, and I'm not convinced I'll absorb anything non-chewable. Guess I'll crack a capsule open and do it that way. Yeuch. 4. Social life - I want it back! Most of my friends are out at a party tonight, and none of them, not even Louis, thought to even tell me about it, let alone invite me. I am SO sick of being left at home alone. It's bad enough having to say 'Sorry - not well enough today', but when people just assume you won't be up to things and automatically leave you out of their plans, that really, really hurts. Not that I could have gone out tonight if they'd paid me, but would it have killed them to at least mention it? I just feel like a non-person at the moment, a living, walking illness - like this thing has eaten my essence and there's precious little of ME left. I'm sick of being ill, of not being able to go out to work, of being stuck at home 7 days a week, mostly on my own, of being forgotten by my friends. I haven't had an evening out with friends since....let's think....September last year, and even then I had to come home early because I got so dizzy and ill. This is driving me nuts, and I want it over. I'm sorry. I'll shut up now. Just needed to get it out of my system. Normal service will be resumed as soon as I've cleaned up the cat- sick..... Ann ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ http://www.willow-web.net Quality Web Design ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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