Stress (Relapse while on LDN)

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Hi all,

This is kinda both a response to _627 and a question to all who would

be kind enough to respond. I've had MS (R/R) it seems for a long time, many

years, but wasn't diagnosed until Sep of 2002. I've been on LDN since

November, same year. My 2nd true attack (what led to diagnosis) left a lot

of damage, particuarly in my hands, mainly the left. (My first, after 6

months, had healed, on its own, I would say close to 95%.)

Dr Bihari also told me it would heal about 3 month of damage; unfortunately,

that didn't happen. It healed a lot, but the last 3 months damage is still

alive and well. The spasticity in both hands did stop, and I did regain

control over my limbs. To be more specific, whether it was natural helaing

or that and the LDN, I can feed myself again, can type again, etc. Until

now, I've been a firm believer in this drug, have spread the word to more

people than I can count, and had gone from suicidal back to, " well, this I

can live with, I guess, as long as I don't get any worse. " Understand, my

life is my hands, so, yeah, I was devestated, not feeling life was worth it

without the few things I love to do.

Anyway, onto my question. Please, finally, for the record, just how true is

the suggestion that stress can effect our condition. Yes, ok, I'm a skeptic,

but it's hard for me not to be. After all, stress is the first thing people

will blurt out as a cause, and it's also the easiest, leaving the person a

little less afraid of the worst case scenario. Yes, also freely admitted, I

do worst case things, but I've had good reason to develop the habit.

Thanks to bloodsucking doctors who care more about the almighty $ than a

human life, I am now flat broke, and am forced to live with a (even though I

hate using the word, it applies clinically) psychotic just to stay alive,

just to prevent losing my home, which is all I have left to my name. He is

not so much physicallly abusive as he is mentally, but let me assure you, he

is indescribably so. To prevent boring you with years of grisly details and

horror stories, I will sum it up by saying, he likes me sick; I'm easier to

control that way (I just don't make as good a servant). Firstly, telling me

I need to get farrrr away, I *know* this, so honestly, I would if I could.

SSI would allow me to do so, but are doing everythng they can not to help

me.

Anyway (I'm good at rambling) obviously I am under more stress than I've

been in my life, even in the time I've been with this guy. Yes, I've had

episodes of " ghost symptoms " many times, always assured by Dr B " it's not an

attack, it's the stress " . As much as I'd like to believe it this time, I

find it difficult. All my symptoms are back in force, (no, no new ones that

I notice) and I'm right back to where I was in 2002, terrified my life is

over, back on the anxiety drugs, and just flat out desperate. Please, dear

group, will you give me your honest thoughts on stress? Or perhaps your own

experiences with it?

TIA from a very scared bunny, and best hopes for all,

Nikko