Just need to vent

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I was diagnosed with bilateral pars defect a few months ago. I did

physical therapy for 6 weeks which helped. I stopped therapy a few

weeks ago and did good the first 2 weeks being consistent with my

exercises. Then the holidays came and everything and I've really

slacked off. The pain started here and there but not severe enough

that I needed to take my pain killers. Then on Saturday I woke up

with the sillyest sypmtoms. My left big toe was numb. It was like

that all day Saturday and Sunday. It was the weirdest thing. Then

last night I started getting back pain and stiffness. I figured once

I got out of bed and walked it off I would feel better. Well that was

not the case. I slowly got out of bed and tried to pick up my 2 year

old and that almost took me to my knees. I'm only 24 years old and I

feel so horrible when I can't even pick up my daughter. The pain

stayed all day long. By 10am I decided to take a pain killer and

within 1 1/2 hours I needed another. Then by mid afternoon another

and then right now I took another pill. What in the world could cause

such a sudden onset of pain? I couldn't even give my daugheter a bath

today and I just wanted to cry. I did manage to take a shower but

with some pain while bending to wash my legs. My boyfriend says it's

probably because I haven't been doing my exercises and I " m sure that

has something to do with it. I guess I just hate the fact that I am

only 24 and this is something I'm going to have to deal with for the

rest of my life. I'm literally dreading going to bed right now cause

I know I'll wake up in a few hours in pain and with stiffness. I

dread what it will feel like in the morning. I hope it goes away just

as fast as it came.

Sorry for randomly posting. I just didn't have anywhere else to post

and needed to talk to people who understand what it's like to have a

back problem.

Thank you,