Another Recovered Alcoholic With A Different Point Of View

December 28, 2008

I have been in this forum for about a year and a half. I previously

thought that I had just one herniated disc L5-S1. Since then I have

had all three areas of the spine MRI'd. I have scoliosis, facet

syndrome, stenosis bulging discs and smorels nodes. One disc in the

thoratic region is pressing on the spinal cord.

When my HMO GP saw the results he rushed me to a orthopedic surgeon

and would not let me have PT, Therapudic massages or Chiropractor work

for fear of paralizing me.

As usual the surgeon through the MRI report back at me and said he

dissagreed with the findings. This has happened three times with this

man. I can not see another doctor for my HMO does not have one.

Now to get to the real point. As the title suggests, I have an

addictive personality. The strongest meds that I was allowed was

Norco which was prescribed by my HMO GP. At one of my visits this man

actually suggested that I see a Phsyciatrist because he felt that I

had an addiction problem. This is the man that rushed me to the

ortopedic surgeon. I was cut off cold turkey and have had nothing

since last June. He even made me leave urine specimens to make sure

that I was not getting Norco from someone else.

I have had failed epidurals which cause severe allergic reactions from

the Prednisone. I have a tens unit and heating pads. My life

sucks. Forgive me for my vulgarity but it is true. I spend day after

day in a lounger all backed up with ortopedic supports which I bought

for myself. My old GP here in town ordered me a handicapped tag for

life. I have to travel 50 or more miles each way to see these HMO

quacks. Luckily, my car seat has a built in lumbar support and heat.

I wish I could bring that car seat in the house.

I can not lay flat on a bed so I have been sleeping sitting up for

over a year. At this point in my life, I would take anything to

relieve the pain. I am not worried about addiction. I want a life.

Smelling a scented candle will not cut it, I am sorry. I have Monroe

tapes on pain management, the whole 9 yards. I feel that I am being

treated unfairly because of my past with alcohol. This pain is not in

my head. Well some of it is from the herniated disc in my neck. This

pain is REAL. I had to give up my beautiful collie for I could no

longer care for him. I have had to give up gardening which was my

whole spring, summer and fall. I have had to give up my life. I have

no quality of life at this time.

So from one Alcoholic to another, please knock it off.

Cheryl V

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