Guest guest Posted January 12, 2011 Report Share Posted January 12, 2011 Trudy,I'm so excited for you! But you're right, the happy dance doesn't necessarily follow right away, after going through the process daily and weekly, it's hard to realize it's done.I remember about two weeks after ending treatment, I decided I'd take a hike with my boys like I used to...NOT! I was reminded in no uncertain terms that I was still packing around lots of meds that hadn't dissipated yet.But I knew that even with that reminder, the drugs were going away, and yours will too...give them time! I don't think I hit a needy stage, but I know I'm a different person post-treatment than I was pre-...some of the things your body taught you in treatment will probably stay with you forever. I used to ride an emotional rollercoaster, either way up there or way down here, y'know? But treatment taught me to level that out some, to respond to things after I'd thought them through, not on a spur of the moment.And emotional energy? Wow, I turned into an energy miser on treatment, 'cause I didn't have anything to spare. Post-treatment, I learned there were things that used to own me that weren't worth my time! Now I think I'm more selective about what my energy and emotions are used with, and it's made me a better person for it...It's back to the Silver Linings, remember? You'll look back on this in a few months or years and see something from that perspective that you can't see now and go "Oh yeah...."Again, I'm so proud of you, and happy for you! I remember getting to eight weeks and being undetectable...my first question was "Do I have to finish the other weeks?"...yeah, think we all went there at one time or another.Good job!SteveLife is much more fun when thought of as a scavenger hunt as opposed to a surprise party. Jimmy Buffett [ ] Scared?? Thank you Don , for ALL you do. When it is your turn, I will be standing right beside you. Heck, if it's not icey winter time, I will drive up there and literally stand beside you. Yes, I quess I'm excited. It's hard to explain, but I have been under the care of several Drs for the past year. Now I'm not gonna have the Hdoc anymore( till 6 months at least). And the others are about done with me ; dang vampires LOL. But I was really scared when I realized this. Even tho I have been active in my healthcare , I always felt " protected " in thier " cocoon of care ". Its really strange how our emotions take wierd turns. I certainly expectedy I would be excited. I was sillyy with excitement when I first heard Undetecable . This is just another step in this journey. Heck, it will be okay as long as this "family " is here for me. Steve, Gloria, Teri, weigh in with your experiences at being cleared and not under the Docs regular care. I am finding myself feeling " very needy". Maybe y'all can express what I'm feeling better. Certainly thought I would be doing Happy Dance. I'm sure I will once I wrap my head around it all. http://facebook.com/people/andTrudy-Kinsey/1340460877 " "A well- behaved woman never made history"...Mae West http://oktravels.wordpress.com http://allrecipes.com/cook/TrudyK/profile.aspx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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