Guest guest Posted January 15, 2011 Report Share Posted January 15, 2011 ny,With all you have gone thru it would be hard to not be bitter, negative and depressed. Heck, I don't have half the issues you do and I'm having one of those bitter and depressed days. Trying not to cry though. I have found that since dealing with hep C I have a much harder time dealing with stress. I have turned finances over to the hubs cause I can't deal with it anymore and just finding out that the house I moved into this past July will be going up for sale when my lease is up if not sooner.. guess who has to move again. Found that out today and the stress is enough to make me just want to get in bed and pull the covers up over my head and stay there. So don't worry about your attitude here.. you know that it's okay... we understand. We've all been there.. we're there now.. We're with you buddy. Hugs,TeriOn Sat, Jan 15, 2011 at 11:24 PM, Barrett <barrjohnm@...> wrote: Hi, I would like to thank everybody and sorry if I come across bitter and negative,it is just I am either very depressed and crying or very angry. Today is both, I hate these days! I wish I knew what caused all my rage, also been having lots of emotional issues lately, been having strange visions and other stuff, think I am almost a few cards short of the deck. just wanted to say this, thank so much Hugs, johnny Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 15, 2011 Report Share Posted January 15, 2011 Oh nyYou have an absolute right to feel the way you do!!! Look at how badly you have been treated by the system over there. Just earlier this week, I went to my Dr. to get an increase in my anti-depressants. Yup, I was either crying, close to tears or very angry at the world because my baby brother (51 yrs old) is close to dying. I knew that I needed to get it under control so that I could be a little stronger for my folks and my brother's girls. There are still far too many days that I would just rather stay in my bed and shut the world out, period. But, then I realize that I have to go out and deal with my responsibilities. That's when I remember that it's not all about me - damn.Strange visions etc. could very well be from the medications that you are taking. When I was on treatment especially, I had some of the most colourful dreams. Of course, that means that we are not getting the restful sleep that is necessary for the body to rejuvenate itself. Hi, I would like to thank everybody and sorry if I come across bitter and negative,it is just I am either very depressed and crying or very angry. Today is both, I hate these days! I wish I knew what caused all my rage, also been having lots of emotional issues lately, been having strange visions and other stuff, think I am almost a few cards short of the deck. just wanted to say this, thank so much Hugs, johnny Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 15, 2011 Report Share Posted January 15, 2011 TeriI'm sorry to hear that. You eluded to something earlier in the week and I kind of thought it could be that. Geez, sometimes it would just be nice to catch a break, hey?? The one thing that I hold very dear is the fact that I was smart enough to buy this RV. It's a roof over my head, just big enough for one person, the cat and the dog. It's totally paid for and no one can take it away.I turned the finances over to the husband when I separated from him and look what I got for it. He didn't pay 5 of the 6 mortgage payments!!! Now the fella that we had a contract with (kinda like a rent to own) is being extremely unreasonable about the whole thing. He just doesn't seem to understand that it had nothing to do with me!! I didn't know a thing about it. If I were to pay him $20,000 that is still over $2,000 more than we owed him. Nope - he wants $30,000 for all of his trouble. Well, my contractor is more than willing to put a builders lien on the place for all the renovations he did. After all, those renovations doubled the place's worth. Also, the contractor did that just for me and not for anyone else and we sure didn't have any money to pay him. I just have to do his bookkeeping for the rest of his or mines life. I have half a mind to take a chain saw to it. Wonder how much someone would like to buy it for if the huge additional room was hacked up and I took down the wall closest to the jaquizzi tub he put in (the contractor). Ya - I'm seeing a lawyer, probably on Monday. He's the contractor's lawyer to boot.Gloria ny,With all you have gone thru it would be hard to not be bitter, negative and depressed. Heck, I don't have half the issues you do and I'm having one of those bitter and depressed days. Trying not to cry though. I have found that since dealing with hep C I have a much harder time dealing with stress. I have turned finances over to the hubs cause I can't deal with it anymore and just finding out that the house I moved into this past July will be going up for sale when my lease is up if not sooner.. guess who has to move again. Found that out today and the stress is enough to make me just want to get in bed and pull the covers up over my head and stay there. So don't worry about your attitude here.. you know that it's okay... we understand. We've all been there.. we're there now.. We're with you buddy. Hugs,TeriOn Sat, Jan 15, 2011 at 11:24 PM, Barrett <barrjohnm@...> wrote: Hi, I would like to thank everybody and sorry if I come across bitter and negative,it is just I am either very depressed and crying or very angry. Today is both, I hate these days! I wish I knew what caused all my rage, also been having lots of emotional issues lately, been having strange visions and other stuff, think I am almost a few cards short of the deck. just wanted to say this, thank so much Hugs, johnny Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 19, 2011 Report Share Posted January 19, 2011 Hi Gloria,Yes I think so, I am more bitter at the way that I been treated than anything else.I do stay in bed most days, getting out of bed is tough, and take alot of pain killers.yes the visions could be caused my the meds, half the time I don't even know what I am taking, I think I take around 15-20 pills daily for pain and other issues. My problem these visions happen hen I am awake, just sort of loose my grip on reality for a few, they are scary visions too.thanks,Hugs, nyOn Jan 15, 2011, at 7:51 PM, Gloria wrote: Oh nyYou have an absolute right to feel the way you do!!! Look at how badly you have been treated by the system over there. Just earlier this week, I went to my Dr. to get an increase in my anti-depressants. Yup, I was either crying, close to tears or very angry at the world because my baby brother (51 yrs old) is close to dying. I knew that I needed to get it under control so that I could be a little stronger for my folks and my brother's girls. There are still far too many days that I would just rather stay in my bed and shut the world out, period. But, then I realize that I have to go out and deal with my responsibilities. That's when I remember that it's not all about me - damn.Strange visions etc. could very well be from the medications that you are taking. When I was on treatment especially, I had some of the most colourful dreams. Of course, that means that we are not getting the restful sleep that is necessary for the body to rejuvenate itself. Hi, I would like to thank everybody and sorry if I come across bitter and negative,it is just I am either very depressed and crying or very angry. Today is both, I hate these days! I wish I knew what caused all my rage, also been having lots of emotional issues lately, been having strange visions and other stuff, think I am almost a few cards short of the deck. just wanted to say this, thank so much Hugs, johnny Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 19, 2011 Report Share Posted January 19, 2011 Hi teri,thanks so much!Yes I feel the same I used to handle stress okay, ow I can't handle any type of stress, makes me feel like i am having a nervous breakdown sometimes.Oh no, I am so sorry to hear that you have to move again, I remember you just moved and was not too much fun for you, I am sorry about this.thanks so much :)Hugs, nyOn Jan 15, 2011, at 7:50 PM, Theresa Gottlieb wrote: ny,With all you have gone thru it would be hard to not be bitter, negative and depressed. Heck, I don't have half the issues you do and I'm having one of those bitter and depressed days. Trying not to cry though. I have found that since dealing with hep C I have a much harder time dealing with stress. I have turned finances over to the hubs cause I can't deal with it anymore and just finding out that the house I moved into this past July will be going up for sale when my lease is up if not sooner.. guess who has to move again. Found that out today and the stress is enough to make me just want to get in bed and pull the covers up over my head and stay there. So don't worry about your attitude here.. you know that it's okay... we understand. We've all been there.. we're there now.. We're with you buddy. Hugs,TeriOn Sat, Jan 15, 2011 at 11:24 PM, Barrett <barrjohnm@...> wrote: Hi, I would like to thank everybody and sorry if I come across bitter and negative,it is just I am either very depressed and crying or very angry. Today is both, I hate these days! I wish I knew what caused all my rage, also been having lots of emotional issues lately, been having strange visions and other stuff, think I am almost a few cards short of the deck. just wanted to say this, thank so much Hugs, johnny Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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