Guest guest Posted January 16, 2011 Report Share Posted January 16, 2011 ny, I feel the same , it changes from upset to angry to ok, then back again. "They" say when life gives you lemons make lemonaide, well what if you dont like lemons, what do u do with all those damn lemons?? A dear friend once said to me when he was diagnosed with hiv, Its just another curve ball in life, amazing thats how he handled it. Dont be sorry for true feelings you are dealing with. If you need to cry then cry. This is not the end for you, you have to realize you can take control of your health now that you know. I know it sounds corney but none of us with or without hepc really know when our time is up, so LIVE, LIVE each day to the fullest. Wherever you go, whatever you do do it with all of your heart. We have the benefit of truely knowing how precious life is. Betty From: Gloria <gadamscan@...> Sent: Sun, January 16, 2011 1:11:35 AMSubject: Re: [ ] thank you and sorry TeriI'm sorry to hear that. You eluded to something earlier in the week and I kind of thought it could be that. Geez, sometimes it would just be nice to catch a break, hey?? The one thing that I hold very dear is the fact that I was smart enough to buy this RV. It's a roof over my head, just big enough for one person, the cat and the dog. It's totally paid for and no one can take it away.I turned the finances over to the husband when I separated from him and look what I got for it. He didn't pay 5 of the 6 mortgage payments!!! Now the fella that we had a contract with (kinda like a rent to own) is being extremely unreasonable about the whole thing. He just doesn't seem to understand that it had nothing to do with me!! I didn't know a thing about it. If I were to pay him $20,000 that is still over $2,000 more than we owed him. Nope - he wants $30,000 for all of his trouble. Well, my contractor is more than willing to put a builders lien on the place for all the renovations he did. After all, those renovations doubled the place's worth. Also, the contractor did that just for me and not for anyone else and we sure didn't have any money to pay him. I just have to do his bookkeeping for the rest of his or mines life. I have half a mind to take a chain saw to it. Wonder how much someone would like to buy it for if the huge additional room was hacked up and I took down the wall closest to the jaquizzi tub he put in (the contractor). Ya - I'm seeing a lawyer, probably on Monday. He's the contractor's lawyer to boot.Gloria ny, With all you have gone thru it would be hard to not be bitter, negative and depressed. Heck, I don't have half the issues you do and I'm having one of those bitter and depressed days. Trying not to cry though. I have found that since dealing with hep C I have a much harder time dealing with stress. I have turned finances over to the hubs cause I can't deal with it anymore and just finding out that the house I moved into this past July will be going up for sale when my lease is up if not sooner.. guess who has to move again. Found that out today and the stress is enough to make me just want to get in bed and pull the covers up over my head and stay there. So don't worry about your attitude here.. you know that it's okay... we understand. We've all been there.. we're there now.. We're with you buddy. Hugs,Teri On Sat, Jan 15, 2011 at 11:24 PM, Barrett <barrjohnm@...> wrote: Hi,I would like to thank everybody and sorry if I come across bitter and negative,it is just I am either very depressed and crying or very angry. Today is both, I hate these days!I wish I knew what caused all my rage, also been having lots of emotional issues lately, been having strange visions and other stuff, think I am almost a few cards short of the deck.just wanted to say this,thank so muchHugs, johnny Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 19, 2011 Report Share Posted January 19, 2011 Hi,yeah my emotions change like the wind, I can't predict either. My Step Mom was amazing she had colon cancer, took it all in strive, I wish I had that kind of strength!most times when I cry I feel worse, amy times I want to call the crisis hotline here, but I am afraid they will call the police.yeah we never know when life is up so living each day to the fullest is a great way to live.thank so much,Hugs,nyOn Jan 16, 2011, at 2:21 AM, Betty Himes wrote: ny, I feel the same , it changes from upset to angry to ok, then back again. "They" say when life gives you lemons make lemonaide, well what if you dont like lemons, what do u do with all those damn lemons?? A dear friend once said to me when he was diagnosed with hiv, Its just another curve ball in life, amazing thats how he handled it. Dont be sorry for true feelings you are dealing with. If you need to cry then cry. This is not the end for you, you have to realize you can take control of your health now that you know. I know it sounds corney but none of us with or without hepc really know when our time is up, so LIVE, LIVE each day to the fullest. Wherever you go, whatever you do do it with all of your heart. We have the benefit of truely knowing how precious life is. Betty From: Gloria <gadamscan@...> Sent: Sun, January 16, 2011 1:11:35 AMSubject: Re: [ ] thank you and sorry TeriI'm sorry to hear that. You eluded to something earlier in the week and I kind of thought it could be that. Geez, sometimes it would just be nice to catch a break, hey?? The one thing that I hold very dear is the fact that I was smart enough to buy this RV. It's a roof over my head, just big enough for one person, the cat and the dog. It's totally paid for and no one can take it away.I turned the finances over to the husband when I separated from him and look what I got for it. He didn't pay 5 of the 6 mortgage payments!!! Now the fella that we had a contract with (kinda like a rent to own) is being extremely unreasonable about the whole thing. He just doesn't seem to understand that it had nothing to do with me!! I didn't know a thing about it. If I were to pay him $20,000 that is still over $2,000 more than we owed him. Nope - he wants $30,000 for all of his trouble. Well, my contractor is more than willing to put a builders lien on the place for all the renovations he did. After all, those renovations doubled the place's worth. Also, the contractor did that just for me and not for anyone else and we sure didn't have any money to pay him. I just have to do his bookkeeping for the rest of his or mines life. I have half a mind to take a chain saw to it. Wonder how much someone would like to buy it for if the huge additional room was hacked up and I took down the wall closest to the jaquizzi tub he put in (the contractor). Ya - I'm seeing a lawyer, probably on Monday. He's the contractor's lawyer to boot.Gloria ny, With all you have gone thru it would be hard to not be bitter, negative and depressed. Heck, I don't have half the issues you do and I'm having one of those bitter and depressed days. Trying not to cry though. I have found that since dealing with hep C I have a much harder time dealing with stress. I have turned finances over to the hubs cause I can't deal with it anymore and just finding out that the house I moved into this past July will be going up for sale when my lease is up if not sooner.. guess who has to move again. Found that out today and the stress is enough to make me just want to get in bed and pull the covers up over my head and stay there. So don't worry about your attitude here.. you know that it's okay... we understand. We've all been there.. we're there now.. We're with you buddy. Hugs,Teri On Sat, Jan 15, 2011 at 11:24 PM, Barrett <barrjohnm@...> wrote: Hi,I would like to thank everybody and sorry if I come across bitter and negative,it is just I am either very depressed and crying or very angry. Today is both, I hate these days!I wish I knew what caused all my rage, also been having lots of emotional issues lately, been having strange visions and other stuff, think I am almost a few cards short of the deck.just wanted to say this,thank so muchHugs, johnny Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 19, 2011 Report Share Posted January 19, 2011 nyI am ashamed of how I act sometimes!! Last year my baby brother's youngest daughter was battling ovarian cancer for the 2nd time AND giving herself the chemo shots daily. But, she kept such a sunny attitude.Now, it's that baby brother that has cancer all through his stomach area and it started as colon cancer. Again, he puts me to shame with his upbeat attitude. I haven't actually seen him yet; but I'll find out tomorrow how he is, because our mother went down to see him today.All I want to keep saying to myself is - don't whine about your cancer cause there are definitely others that have it a whole lot worse. This brother is a ticking time bomb and won't live all that long. I'm going to still be alive for a few years after him. It's my time NOT to talk about my cancer again to my mother.Gloria Hi,yeah my emotions change like the wind, I can't predict either. My Step Mom was amazing she had colon cancer, took it all in strive, I wish I had that kind of strength!most times when I cry I feel worse, amy times I want to call the crisis hotline here, but I am afraid they will call the police.yeah we never know when life is up so living each day to the fullest is a great way to live.thank so much,Hugs,nyOn Jan 16, 2011, at 2:21 AM, Betty Himes wrote: ny, I feel the same , it changes from upset to angry to ok, then back again. "They" say when life gives you lemons make lemonaide, well what if you dont like lemons, what do u do with all those damn lemons?? A dear friend once said to me when he was diagnosed with hiv, Its just another curve ball in life, amazing thats how he handled it. Dont be sorry for true feelings you are dealing with. If you need to cry then cry. This is not the end for you, you have to realize you can take control of your health now that you know. I know it sounds corney but none of us with or without hepc really know when our time is up, so LIVE, LIVE each day to the fullest. Wherever you go, whatever you do do it with all of your heart. We have the benefit of truely knowing how precious life is. Betty From: Gloria <gadamscan@...> Sent: Sun, January 16, 2011 1:11:35 AMSubject: Re: [ ] thank you and sorry TeriI'm sorry to hear that. You eluded to something earlier in the week and I kind of thought it could be that. Geez, sometimes it would just be nice to catch a break, hey?? The one thing that I hold very dear is the fact that I was smart enough to buy this RV. It's a roof over my head, just big enough for one person, the cat and the dog. It's totally paid for and no one can take it away.I turned the finances over to the husband when I separated from him and look what I got for it. He didn't pay 5 of the 6 mortgage payments!!! Now the fella that we had a contract with (kinda like a rent to own) is being extremely unreasonable about the whole thing. He just doesn't seem to understand that it had nothing to do with me!! I didn't know a thing about it. If I were to pay him $20,000 that is still over $2,000 more than we owed him. Nope - he wants $30,000 for all of his trouble. Well, my contractor is more than willing to put a builders lien on the place for all the renovations he did. After all, those renovations doubled the place's worth. Also, the contractor did that just for me and not for anyone else and we sure didn't have any money to pay him. I just have to do his bookkeeping for the rest of his or mines life. I have half a mind to take a chain saw to it. Wonder how much someone would like to buy it for if the huge additional room was hacked up and I took down the wall closest to the jaquizzi tub he put in (the contractor). Ya - I'm seeing a lawyer, probably on Monday. He's the contractor's lawyer to boot.Gloria ny, With all you have gone thru it would be hard to not be bitter, negative and depressed. Heck, I don't have half the issues you do and I'm having one of those bitter and depressed days. Trying not to cry though. I have found that since dealing with hep C I have a much harder time dealing with stress. I have turned finances over to the hubs cause I can't deal with it anymore and just finding out that the house I moved into this past July will be going up for sale when my lease is up if not sooner.. guess who has to move again. Found that out today and the stress is enough to make me just want to get in bed and pull the covers up over my head and stay there. So don't worry about your attitude here.. you know that it's okay... we understand. We've all been there.. we're there now.. We're with you buddy. Hugs,Teri On Sat, Jan 15, 2011 at 11:24 PM, Barrett <barrjohnm@...> wrote: Hi,I would like to thank everybody and sorry if I come across bitter and negative,it is just I am either very depressed and crying or very angry. Today is both, I hate these days!I wish I knew what caused all my rage, also been having lots of emotional issues lately, been having strange visions and other stuff, think I am almost a few cards short of the deck.just wanted to say this,thank so muchHugs, johnny Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 20, 2011 Report Share Posted January 20, 2011 Hi Gloria,I can related!!A good friend of mine has some sort of brain cancer and heart problems, he is awesome never complains, everything is wonderful attitude, then there is me. is so much sicker than me, but his attitude about it is wonderful, I want to be strong too! Sometimes I feel ashamed on who I act, but I can't help it:(thank so much,Hugs, nyOn Jan 19, 2011, at 7:01 PM, Gloria wrote: nyI am ashamed of how I act sometimes!! Last year my baby brother's youngest daughter was battling ovarian cancer for the 2nd time AND giving herself the chemo shots daily. But, she kept such a sunny attitude.Now, it's that baby brother that has cancer all through his stomach area and it started as colon cancer. Again, he puts me to shame with his upbeat attitude. I haven't actually seen him yet; but I'll find out tomorrow how he is, because our mother went down to see him today.All I want to keep saying to myself is - don't whine about your cancer cause there are definitely others that have it a whole lot worse. This brother is a ticking time bomb and won't live all that long. I'm going to still be alive for a few years after him. It's my time NOT to talk about my cancer again to my mother.Gloria Hi,yeah my emotions change like the wind, I can't predict either. My Step Mom was amazing she had colon cancer, took it all in strive, I wish I had that kind of strength!most times when I cry I feel worse, amy times I want to call the crisis hotline here, but I am afraid they will call the police.yeah we never know when life is up so living each day to the fullest is a great way to live.thank so much,Hugs,nyOn Jan 16, 2011, at 2:21 AM, Betty Himes wrote: ny, I feel the same , it changes from upset to angry to ok, then back again. "They" say when life gives you lemons make lemonaide, well what if you dont like lemons, what do u do with all those damn lemons?? A dear friend once said to me when he was diagnosed with hiv, Its just another curve ball in life, amazing thats how he handled it. Dont be sorry for true feelings you are dealing with. If you need to cry then cry. This is not the end for you, you have to realize you can take control of your health now that you know. I know it sounds corney but none of us with or without hepc really know when our time is up, so LIVE, LIVE each day to the fullest. Wherever you go, whatever you do do it with all of your heart. We have the benefit of truely knowing how precious life is. Betty From: Gloria <gadamscan@...> Sent: Sun, January 16, 2011 1:11:35 AMSubject: Re: [ ] thank you and sorry TeriI'm sorry to hear that. You eluded to something earlier in the week and I kind of thought it could be that. Geez, sometimes it would just be nice to catch a break, hey?? The one thing that I hold very dear is the fact that I was smart enough to buy this RV. It's a roof over my head, just big enough for one person, the cat and the dog. It's totally paid for and no one can take it away.I turned the finances over to the husband when I separated from him and look what I got for it. He didn't pay 5 of the 6 mortgage payments!!! Now the fella that we had a contract with (kinda like a rent to own) is being extremely unreasonable about the whole thing. He just doesn't seem to understand that it had nothing to do with me!! I didn't know a thing about it. If I were to pay him $20,000 that is still over $2,000 more than we owed him. Nope - he wants $30,000 for all of his trouble. Well, my contractor is more than willing to put a builders lien on the place for all the renovations he did. After all, those renovations doubled the place's worth. Also, the contractor did that just for me and not for anyone else and we sure didn't have any money to pay him. I just have to do his bookkeeping for the rest of his or mines life. I have half a mind to take a chain saw to it. Wonder how much someone would like to buy it for if the huge additional room was hacked up and I took down the wall closest to the jaquizzi tub he put in (the contractor). Ya - I'm seeing a lawyer, probably on Monday. He's the contractor's lawyer to boot.Gloria ny, With all you have gone thru it would be hard to not be bitter, negative and depressed. Heck, I don't have half the issues you do and I'm having one of those bitter and depressed days. Trying not to cry though. I have found that since dealing with hep C I have a much harder time dealing with stress. I have turned finances over to the hubs cause I can't deal with it anymore and just finding out that the house I moved into this past July will be going up for sale when my lease is up if not sooner.. guess who has to move again. Found that out today and the stress is enough to make me just want to get in bed and pull the covers up over my head and stay there. So don't worry about your attitude here.. you know that it's okay... we understand. We've all been there.. we're there now.. We're with you buddy. Hugs,Teri On Sat, Jan 15, 2011 at 11:24 PM, Barrett <barrjohnm@...> wrote: Hi,I would like to thank everybody and sorry if I come across bitter and negative,it is just I am either very depressed and crying or very angry. Today is both, I hate these days!I wish I knew what caused all my rage, also been having lots of emotional issues lately, been having strange visions and other stuff, think I am almost a few cards short of the deck.just wanted to say this,thank so muchHugs, johnny Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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