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Gloria...  What you said here is PROFOUND.  You were " grieving the loss of my health " .  WOW.  I am sure on some level we have all done this, if not we should have, but we don't realize it.  Think about this for a minute...  EVERYBODY THINK ABOUT THIS.  Our health is the closest most personal thing that we have.  We usually always take it for granted UNTIL IT IS IN JEOPARDY.  

This journey that Steve and I have been on for the past few months has shed a lot of light on this.  We were asked what it felt like when we were told we had hep c.  We were asked to write it down and expand on that one moment.  What did it feel like to get that diagnosis?  What went thru your head?  What did you do with that information?  How did you HANDLE it?  You know what I found out?  I didn't HANDLE it at all.  Now, 5 years after the fact, I am first starting to handle it.  I can honestly tell you all that in the past few months, I have shed more tears about my diagnosis with hep c than I have in the past 6 years since I was diagnosed.  I have driven hep c out of my liver, but it is STILL playing havoc in my head.  I am cured of hep c...  physically but not mentally.  I have been to psychologists, psychiatrists and doctors of all sorts but no one has been able to help me get a handle on this til now..  and my help is coming from a group of people who have asked me to tell them what having hep c was like.  By telling my story, I am learning to deal with what hep c did to me emotionally.  It's a hard road guys...  but we are all going to have to go down it if we want to get better.  

When it comes right down to it, our health is one of the most important things we will ever confront.  When there is a possibility of it being gone..  possibly for good, it really messes with our heads.  We may not want to admit it...  but you can't get around it.  It happens.  

Hugs,TeriOn Wed, Jan 19, 2011 at 10:51 PM, Gloria <gadamscan@...> wrote:

 

Beth and nyIt is really important to get to the root of the depression.  When I failed the first treatment, I walked around not knowing what to do.  Sometimes, I felt angry that there are drug addicts that quit drugs and their body throws off the HepC.  Yet, I knew that wasn't the right feeling; because, I would not wish this disease on ANYONE.

Finally, in the fall of 2008, I suddenly realized that I was actually grieving the loss of my health.  It seemed simple once I could see that.  So, I went to my GP and of course, she started me on anti-depressants.  You see, I didn't need them when I did my first round of tx and didn't realize what was really going on in between the

tx's.  On the clinical trial that I did, I had to have those anti-depressants raised a lot just to at least act normal once in a while.  Finally, around the 36th week, the GP had to add a completely new anti-depressant along with the ones that I was still taking.  Honestly, I would not have made it through that tx without them.  Then, so much happened last year, that I was never really able to go off them altogether.  About a month or so ago, I had to ask for something stronger again.  Then, here just a week or so ago, I went in to get a repeat and was choking back tears, so she put me on a higher dose.  It's just that sometimes life hands us a little bit more than we can handle.  The anti-depressants help me cope with everything that still goes on around me.

ny, doctors always have to fool around with anti-depressants, to see what you really need.   It's very possible that the current

prescription simply is not correct for you.  Let the Dr. know that.  What works for one person, may not work for another.  It's trial and error.Gloria

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GLORIA, There are 2 things you have said this week which have helped me tremendouslyin getting past the Loss of my health and the loss of the job after 19 years I realize I am still dwelling in both, prob the job moreso as is the most recent event. I think I al;most had the HepC issues under control, then bam, when I lost my job it seems like I can find 2 ml reasons to be depressed. I am able to see and reconize it but have not been able to accept it. Like i can change any of it!! Thanks for these encouraging words. Like Teri said how PROFOUND. betty

From: Gloria <gadamscan@...> Sent: Sat, January 22, 2011 1:49:31 AMSubject: Re: [ ] Depression - Gloria - PROFOUND

TeriI hadn't realized that you hadn't seen me post that before!! Actually, walking around feeling like there was a grey cloud over my head that could turn black at any moment, didn't do any good for the creeping depression. Finally, I was able to see it and get to the acceptance.Then, very quickly after that experience, I was called about doing the clinical.I think life is a lot of times just a serious of things that we have to accept. The longer that we want to fight the reality, the longer we can be in depression.Gloria

Gloria... What you said here is PROFOUND. You were "grieving the loss of my health". WOW. I am sure on some level we have all done this, if not we should have, but we don't realize it. Think about this for a minute... EVERYBODY THINK ABOUT THIS. Our health is the closest most personal thing that we have. We usually always take it for granted UNTIL IT IS IN JEOPARDY.

This journey that Steve and I have been on for the past few months has shed a lot of light on this. We were asked what it felt like when we were told we had hep c. We were asked to write it down and expand on that one moment. What did it feel like to get that diagnosis? What went thru your head? What did you do with that information? How did you HANDLE it? You know what I found out? I didn't HANDLE it at all. Now, 5 years after the fact, I am first starting to handle it. I can honestly tell you all that in the past few months, I have shed more tears about my diagnosis with hep c than I have in the past 6 years since I was diagnosed. I have driven hep c out of my liver, but it is STILL playing havoc in my head. I am cured of hep c... physically but not mentally. I have been to psychologists, psychiatrists and doctors of all sorts but no one has been able to help me

get a handle on this til now.. and my help is coming from a group of people who have asked me to tell them what having hep c was like. By telling my story, I am learning to deal with what hep c did to me emotionally. It's a hard road guys... but we are all going to have to go down it if we want to get better.

When it comes right down to it, our health is one of the most important things we will ever confront. When there is a possibility of it being gone.. possibly for good, it really messes with our heads. We may not want to admit it... but you can't get around it. It happens.

Hugs,Teri

On Wed, Jan 19, 2011 at 10:51 PM, Gloria <gadamscan@...> wrote:

Beth and nyIt is really important to get to the root of the depression. When I failed the first treatment, I walked around not knowing what to do. Sometimes, I felt angry that there are drug addicts that quit drugs and their body throws off the HepC. Yet, I knew that wasn't the right feeling; because, I would not wish this disease on ANYONE.Finally, in the fall of 2008, I suddenly realized that I was actually grieving the loss of my health. It seemed simple once I could see that. So, I went to my GP and of course, she started me on anti-depressants. You see, I didn't need them when I did my first round of tx and didn't realize what was really going on in between the tx's. On the clinical trial that I did, I had to have those anti-depressants raised a lot just to at least act normal once in a while. Finally,

around the 36th week, the GP had to add a completely new anti-depressant along with the ones that I was still taking. Honestly, I would not have made it through that tx without them. Then, so much happened last year, that I was never really able to go off them altogether. About a month or so ago, I had to ask for something stronger again. Then, here just a week or so ago, I went in to get a repeat and was choking back tears, so she put me on a higher dose. It's just that sometimes life hands us a little bit more than we can handle. The anti-depressants help me cope with everything that still goes on around me.ny, doctors always have to fool around with anti-depressants, to see what you really need. It's very possible that the current prescription simply is not correct for you. Let the Dr. know that. What works for one person, may not work for another. It's trial and

error.Gloria

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BettyI'm glad I could help; but, I really should apply my own words to my life!! Here's me that went to bed early Fri evening and got up at noon today. It's all depression.Now what I'm trying to do, is focus on my baby brother. Someone set up a blog, so that all of us could keep up with whatever is going on in his day. Well, on there is a picture of him!! Then, I think to self - what the hell to I have to be depressed about?? My baby brother is never going to get out of a hospital. Unfortunately, when looking at the picture, he honestly has looked like he was the oldest instead of the youngest. Now we know why.Gloria

GLORIA, There are 2 things you have said this week which have helped me tremendouslyin getting past the Loss of my health and the loss of the job after 19 years I realize I am still dwelling in both, prob the job moreso as is the most recent event. I think I al;most had the HepC issues under control, then bam, when I lost my job it seems like I can find 2 ml reasons to be depressed. I am able to see and reconize it but have not been able to accept it. Like i can change any of it!! Thanks for these encouraging words. Like Teri said how PROFOUND. betty

From: Gloria <gadamscan@...> Sent: Sat, January 22, 2011 1:49:31 AMSubject: Re: [ ] Depression - Gloria - PROFOUND

TeriI hadn't realized that you hadn't seen me post that before!! Actually, walking around feeling like there was a grey cloud over my head that could turn black at any moment, didn't do any good for the creeping depression. Finally, I was able to see it and get to the acceptance.Then, very quickly after that experience, I was called about doing the clinical.I think life is a lot of times just a serious of things that we have to accept. The longer that we want to fight the reality, the longer we can be in depression.Gloria

Gloria... What you said here is PROFOUND. You were "grieving the loss of my health". WOW. I am sure on some level we have all done this, if not we should have, but we don't realize it. Think about this for a minute... EVERYBODY THINK ABOUT THIS. Our health is the closest most personal thing that we have. We usually always take it for granted UNTIL IT IS IN JEOPARDY.

This journey that Steve and I have been on for the past few months has shed a lot of light on this. We were asked what it felt like when we were told we had hep c. We were asked to write it down and expand on that one moment. What did it feel like to get that diagnosis? What went thru your head? What did you do with that information? How did you HANDLE it? You know what I found out? I didn't HANDLE it at all. Now, 5 years after the fact, I am first starting to handle it. I can honestly tell you all that in the past few months, I have shed more tears about my diagnosis with hep c than I have in the past 6 years since I was diagnosed. I have driven hep c out of my liver, but it is STILL playing havoc in my head. I am cured of hep c... physically but not mentally. I have been to psychologists, psychiatrists and doctors of all sorts but no one has been able to help me

get a handle on this til now.. and my help is coming from a group of people who have asked me to tell them what having hep c was like. By telling my story, I am learning to deal with what hep c did to me emotionally. It's a hard road guys... but we are all going to have to go down it if we want to get better.

When it comes right down to it, our health is one of the most important things we will ever confront. When there is a possibility of it being gone.. possibly for good, it really messes with our heads. We may not want to admit it... but you can't get around it. It happens.

Hugs,Teri

On Wed, Jan 19, 2011 at 10:51 PM, Gloria <gadamscan@...> wrote:

Beth and nyIt is really important to get to the root of the depression. When I failed the first treatment, I walked around not knowing what to do. Sometimes, I felt angry that there are drug addicts that quit drugs and their body throws off the HepC. Yet, I knew that wasn't the right feeling; because, I would not wish this disease on ANYONE.Finally, in the fall of 2008, I suddenly realized that I was actually grieving the loss of my health. It seemed simple once I could see that. So, I went to my GP and of course, she started me on anti-depressants. You see, I didn't need them when I did my first round of tx and didn't realize what was really going on in between the tx's. On the clinical trial that I did, I had to have those anti-depressants raised a lot just to at least act normal once in a while.

Finally,

around the 36th week, the GP had to add a completely new anti-depressant along with the ones that I was still taking. Honestly, I would not have made it through that tx without them. Then, so much happened last year, that I was never really able to go off them altogether. About a month or so ago, I had to ask for something stronger again. Then, here just a week or so ago, I went in to get a repeat and was choking back tears, so she put me on a higher dose. It's just that sometimes life hands us a little bit more than we can handle. The anti-depressants help me cope with everything that still goes on around me.ny, doctors always have to fool around with anti-depressants, to see what you really need. It's very possible that the current prescription simply is not correct for you. Let the Dr. know that. What works for one person, may not work for another. It's trial and

error.Gloria

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