Brain fog - Cindy

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Hi

I know your scared, and full of questions, what if's, and doubts.

Everything is going to be ok.

Youve got a good head on your shoulders, and your backed up by a good man.

You have a loving family and friends nearby.

Everyone in the group will stand by you all the way.

I personally think you should take a leave of absence from your job for awhile, but that is just my opinion.

[i have never liked to see you stressing.]

The money problem.....whats more important - the money or your health?

The brain fog - welcome to the club.

Now what was I saying....LOL :-)

Oh yeah -

My ex from 3 years ago messaged me today in Facebook, and told me to take down the picture of me and her, or she was going to report me.

I blocked, and reported her for harrassment.

Gee, I wonder how that will work out. LOL :-)

, you have my email, phone number, and know where I live.

I am still your friend.

I even have a futon in the back bedroom should you need to camp out.

It aint much but its there.

I am blasting you with love, peace of mind, and tons of good energy, my friend.

Everything is going to be ok . I promise.

love

don in ks

From: Cinder <datagrey@...>Subject: Re: [ ] Brain fog Date: Friday, January 14, 2011, 1:06 PM

I have talked to Rick to let him know whether I am able to walk around and look normal or not if I am this confused on and off already that it will be worse and it wont be me looking at it in a negative way it is a part of tx that happens. It is just something that is expected. Something that you cannot get by. It can be barely to real bad. I have problems and I haven't done tx so mine may not be fun. I have a house I am suppose to be packing and I am so lost in this mess. I feel like crying most the time. He said I could have some help. When I get help I don't know what to tell the girl to do. I handle work. I can do that. I am good at that. I can make it to work. I can cook real good still.I can still take care of my pets and I shop for groceries well. When I had to shop for a pair of pants and a top for the funeral it took me a whole damn day. I had no idea. I was clueless. I even took that girl with me.

I do , do those games constantly on my computer. I also joined the sofa club and several others Eva does that she does mind sharpening games on. I do them on the nights off. I know my skills at work are not lacking. My boss asked me what pills this one man did not take and I laid them out and was able to tell her right off what all ten pills were and few of them were herbs. So still trust myself there. I can tell which pills belong to any of my six pts.

I am finding it hard to plan a menu ahead for food though now. I am always leaving something out forgetting things.

I found out I have narrowing of the spine in the neck. That was causing the legs giving out. So going to a spinal surgeon. I refuse to let him do surgery on me till after the tx. I don't want to be trying to recover from that at the same time as tx. My hubby is behind me all the way in all of this now. He said whatever we need to do. He is being more understanding. His step mother is going to help me when I need it with rides or picking stuff up. She said she would go in with me to my first shot at the docs if I want. Rick says no but he won't be there. He has no more time off he can take now. So I may anyway. I am really not all that afraid of the shot itself. Well I say that but when it comes to that yeah I have never done a shot ever. Yeah I am wierd about giving myself a shot. ewww. Kind of makes my stomach turn. If I know it is one I am suppose to give myself I feel I will be okay with it. I would be more afraid if it were something I wasn't

suppose to do like drugs. I could never have shot up drugs. Too squirmish. I about fainted once cleaning my daughters ear.

Anyway I know I will be okay. I will have everything set up at home to relax. I will go for the shot and go home and prepare for the sleep and sleep all day. I will be taking mine first thing in the morning. I sleep in the daytime. I work at night. The doc asked that I ask for a couple of three weeks or so off. Rick is feeling different about that. He says just take the shot see how it goes and then if over the weekend it doesn't get better you can call and tell her you can't work yet. Her mom and her both know I am seeing the doc about whether I start in April. He did not want me to tell her. I wanted to be as honest as I could be. I just haven't been honest about what exactly I have.

I am getting more nervous as time gets closer. Rick is stressing more and making me worry more by talking to me about how money is going to be such a problem and we are going to go bankrupt and lose everything ect. I told him just move everything to the misslebase the lower paying house payment and fix the trailer and make it liveable before april and quit messing around with making me worry about stuff I can't do anything about except get sicker worrying about it. I told him it was mean to make me worry about it. He is trying not to do that now. He cares he is just scared as I am too. He has his Mom talking to him in one ear telling him what he should do all the time and it isnt' right. His brother Barry wants him to help with all his stuff and his friend Randy wants help with all his stuff. His friend Goat wants help with his stuff. Everyone wants Ricks help and he don't know how to say no. He is a nice guy. I told him he has to quit

being nice for awhile and help ourselves. They need to help us. For all we have done for everyone else it is time we should get some help.

So I got way too much on my mind. This is probably why I cannot concentrate. I have my mind going a hundred different ways. Then Rick walks in and there is even more to think about.

lol.

Okay. It is cold outside. My dogs are great. I am going to go drown myself in a nice tub of hot water and try to quit hurting as bad. I feel wound up for no good reason and nobody has even talked to me today and I am not pms because no period. I am menopausal. I feel like a strange mood and full of pain. My feet have started hurting when I first get up and walk on them. That is in the last month or so. They are not swollen when I get up.

I think there is not a right side of the bed today. I will get better though.

Thank you so much Gloria. I hope you are doing okay too. That must have really been a shock to find out your husband passed. I am sorry for your loss. I am sorry you had and have to go through that crap with the step kids and other family members who were not nice to you. You deserved to be treated so much better than that. Hugs Cinder

From: Gloria <gadamscan@...>Subject: [ ] Brain fog Date: Sunday, January 2, 2011, 11:26 PM

As usual, Teri has said it all in this post!! One of the sites that I went to once, recommended some games that are actually very easy; but, it's likely they will be the only ones that your brain will be able to get around. Even forms of solitaire could be difficult; but, recommended.I'm still getting run down by folks that never bothered to get informed about treatment to begin with. Don't let that happen to you!! You might as well get Rick used to the fact that you will be incapable of being super-woman, right now. Then perhaps it won't come as a blow to him.Now here's one for a laugh. I am a bookkeeper for small businesses in my area of the world. Something that a bookkeeper needs the most is her/his mind!!! There were many days during both treatments that I simply didn't have a mind. I didn't contemplate

my toes; but, I would stare at the computer and not know what I was supposed to do. I was very busy doing nothing most of the time.Gloria