Re: Getting deeply worried - 5 months on diet all gone?

[Guest guest]

In my own personal experience I have found when I feel especially awful when I

come out of it I feel even better then I did before. I suspect you are going

through major healing. Our first response is to fight it and try to figure it

out. When you feel horrible it is exceptionally difficult to think in these

terms (God knows I have used a great deal of energy trying to rationalize all

that's going on in my body and actually suppress it because I don't like feeling

horrible, bloated, weak and what seems like death), but then I turn a corner and

feel better then I did when the episode started. From now on when this happens

I am going to do my best to dig even deeper into the program and hopefully

accept what is happening in my body and trust the program. I went on vacation

recently and I have been feeling so good that I gave myself a vacation from the

program. Then I came home and instead of straightening up I continued my

vacation. Not a good idea.

I felt horrible. This taught me a powerful lesson. The plan works. I am not

worried about lost ground. My energy is going into healing and a deeper

dedication to the program. I pray this episode doesn't last long for you and

that you reach a new level of health and vitality once this passes. In Joy,

in NC

> From: M <michaelzim52@...>

> Subject: [ ] Getting deeply worried - 5 months on diet all gone?

>

> Date: Monday, June 30, 2008, 7:56 PM

> Back to default???

> Have been at friends on the coast for two days out of the

> smoke and

> wildfire zone here in N. California, and lungs are fine

> again. However, it

> seems like I am continuing to deteriorate and feel like I

> did 6 months

> ago or more. It is scary on a deep level, which I am sure

> many of you

> understand when you slide back after feeling like you are

> improving and

> then it all falls apart - again. " Oh no, I cannnot

> face going back to that

> degree of incapacity again! " It hurts emotionally as

> much as the feeling

> ill does...

>

> I am now convinced that there is a detox issue going on

> just as the

> genetic tests described a few years ago. That little

> exposure to smoke I

> had (indoors for a few days with filter going) should not

> have triggered

> such a big backslide as this. With the diet and progress I

> made after

> the " two jumps up " with the clove oil week and

> then the Silymarin/Milk

> Thistle (that reduced my 'brain fog' a lot), I

> would have thought I would

> have more resilience than this. It is very confusing. This

> is just like the

> many times in the past where things that have helped just

> stop working

> any more and nothing improves until I stumble onto some new

> approach

> that changes the dynamic. Like my body gets used to

> something and

> then goes back to default.

>

> Did the week of fiddling with digestive enzymes start this

> deterioration?

> Could it do that as it seems like I was trending downward a

> few days

> even before the fires started? Could it be???

>

> The Candida must surely be different or less by now after

> nearly 5

> months of giving it so little to feed on? Especially as my

> diet has been so

> free of junk food, sugar and processed food for 25 years or

> more. The

> idea of a candida diagnosis has always been hard for people

> to believe

> due to me living such a healthy lifestyle, but...the

> checklist of symptoms

> scores right up there. The symptoms came well before I took

> my first

> antibiotics too (for eventual supposed Lyme hypothesis).

>

> Aaaaaaaaargghhhhh... It is so crazy-making. I KNOW there is

> something

> wrong that is just not being found and I am getting whacked

> back and

> forth by the whims of the wind. The diet etc., has helped

> reduce the gut

> pain for sure but it is still a cauldron of hyperactivity.

> For sure my brain

> is getting worse though.

>

> Lastly, is anyone else dealing with esoteric detox

> issues??? I know that

> Weston Price says the genetics can be reversed/overcome,

> but

> meanwhile there is a puzzle there that could be mighty

> helpful to

> unravel a bit. [Coffee enemas are out as enemas give me

> hemmorhoids

> quickly and when I did do them did not notice much to

> boot.]

>

> Sorry this is a rather unfocused ramble, but it helps to

> share as it makes

> me feel a little less helpless.

>

> Best to all. Breathe deep if the air is clean...

> M

[Guest guest]

, you can be assured you aren't deteriorating like you were

before, but you've just been through tremendous stress, and that will

trigger your mind to past threats, body problems, etc. It takes

about 3 days to settle out of something triggered by the mind. Then

your body needs to detox the smoke, and you will be back on track.

Try not to analyze things too much; you'll drive yourself crazy.

Trust your body, Nature's Laws, and Dr. Price, and the many Success

Stories by people on this group, and you'll do better. Second

guessing yourself is counterproductive. Just keep on keeping on and

you will succeed!

Healing hugs, Bee

>

> Back to default???

> Have been at friends on the coast for two days out of the smoke and

> wildfire zone here in N. California, and lungs are fine again.

However, it

> seems like I am continuing to deteriorate and feel like I did 6

months

> ago or more. It is scary on a deep level, which I am sure many of

you

> understand when you slide back after feeling like you are improving

and

> then it all falls apart - again. " Oh no, I cannnot face going back

to that

> degree of incapacity again! " It hurts emotionally as much as the

feeling

> ill does...

>

> I am now convinced that there is a detox issue going on just as the

> genetic tests described a few years ago. That little exposure to

smoke I

> had (indoors for a few days with filter going) should not have

triggered

> such a big backslide as this. With the diet and progress I made

after

> the " two jumps up " with the clove oil week and then the

Silymarin/Milk

> Thistle (that reduced my 'brain fog' a lot), I would have thought I

would

> have more resilience than this. It is very confusing. This is just

like the

> many times in the past where things that have helped just stop

working

> any more and nothing improves until I stumble onto some new

approach

> that changes the dynamic. Like my body gets used to something and

> then goes back to default.

>

> Did the week of fiddling with digestive enzymes start this

deterioration?

> Could it do that as it seems like I was trending downward a few

days

> even before the fires started? Could it be???

>

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[Guest guest]

and Bee...

Thanks very much for the support. It is so hard to share this fear with

anyone who has not experienced chronic illness that does not fit any easy

category or diagnosis. I hope you are correct and know that I do not have

any option anyway as I always seem to just keep going. The despair is

hard to keep down though after going through so much.

Back to the smoke zone today and no doubt that will be a fear trigger once

I smell it again but will have to deal with it. Not that I am afraid of fire

particularly, it is more: " My God, did the smoke manage to derail me so

much after just such a short time!? " That will be the monster to confront. I

don't really know how to deal with this kind of thing any more as the pat

techniques like breathing, being nice to myself and all that just get

steamrolled. There is nothing like just " feeling better " physically to make

everything else so much simpler.

Again thank you! M.